Real pain from sadness

[Stitchin]

hi everyone.
I'm on the rollercoaster, some days I'm fine, others not so much.
I'm so depressed. I've been frozen for over a month, can't get anything done. Can't even listen to music.
But the heartache feel real. It's like my heart is trying to beat right out of my chest, it feels huge and it hurts physically.
It's exhausting. I can't sleep anymore and I detest being awake.
I am trying really hard to get in the now, yoga, meditation, using distress tolerance tools like the senses. But inside I am making no progress at all. It's like I'm not even real.

 

[Deleted member 37474]

Feeling nothing is a horrible thing. Please ride this out and talk to a medical person to help you out! Love and care is being sent to you from Texas!

 

[Deleted member 541]

Sometimes just forcing yourself to have a set schedule and doing it will help. But it has to be like an 6 hour schedule. Doing something for those 6 hours. It will get you tired physically and mentally so that you can sleep at night.