Responses To Your Therapist That You Will Probably Never Say

[Ronin]

It really was not rhetorical when I said hope is an useless sucker that is not an action plan, and can destroy people so badly, so I want nothing to do with it.

The rest of the commentary is empty bubbles of fighting robots, because goddammit, nerdy kids I was teaching were getting my reasoning more than you.
Relying on a future that does not yet exist, likely never will, supports in that distance that are unreliable, allies that will betray you at the drop of a hat, (fast forward through friends that never knew you and others lost) to Endurance/Strength ARE life upholding a drive, do not even dare argue me about it (... Cannot keep this academic.)

Nevermind. Big fighting robots. And other Things that do not exist in your world.

 

[MyWillow]

I actually did say this:

“Connecting with people sounds like the most dumb f*cking idea ever.”

Her response? She apologised, said she was wrong, asked if connecting felt dangerous and if I could continue to be brutally honest with her.

So - whilst I love this thread - I’m going to try not to post things that I WANT to say but don’t.

 

[blackemerald1]

"You have the most serene aura, big owl glasses, infectious laugh and smile and your voice is so gentle that I feel crude and blunt and brutish in your presence" :wtf:

 

[Ronin]

It occured to you only now I am not metaphoric, and your life frame of reference is somewhere totally else? :banghead:

That was so hilarious I forgot about the dream I was so shattered by. (Ok, kids do not grow up for me to see their weddings, and all.) Speaking of weddings... Nevermind, I am going to be all metaphoric. Kill Bill had how I "feel" about the weddings.

Note to self: Bring vodka to therapy. For either of you. Sad hilarious is better with booze.

 

[Ronin]

Borrowing Scout’s therapist, for the time being. (Go Away, November.) Light and hilarious while rational are needed.*

Because I need to not go back to drinking. For people not getting trauma, no less.
... And, no. I am absolutely doing *enough*. Stabilizing myself to be able to work and do forms (and idiotic bureaucrats with them), no matter that not everyday, instead of puking my guts out on a daily basis, is damn doing enough.

* This was meant to be a thread in Therapy &, section. Just as usual with too close things, months of context are complicated and :eek:

 

[blackemerald1]

You have helped me heal so much more than anyone else in my life and that makes me feel really grateful to you and terrified that you might leave too... before I have healed enough to fly again on my own.

 

[Teasel]

Responses To Your Therapist That You Will Probably Never Say:
Well you can f*ck right off ?

 

[Ronin]

What do you mean, that was just sad, not sad hilarious? :shifty:

All of how the system should support me, yeah, ya, ya, ya. The only people I knew saying that about states were either liars, or dead idealists. So for God’s love, let me be a cynical asshole and do not remind me of all the buried dreamers.

Cos that is the sad that, again, f*cked up my sleep schedule. I need more Marco Polo stickers, none tears.

 

[Skywatcher]

I secretly like that we hug at the end. It still terrifies me, I look away and close my eyes, but it is getting easier.

 

[Skywatcher]

When you said that you couldn’t be unbiased in a jury back then. There was no possible way. What exactly happened to you?

 

[ms spock]

Kill them! Kill them all!

 

[Changing4Best]

I quit!