Saw this interesting piece about women using violence to fend off abuse/ change an abusive situation/ get revenge. It's quite a thoughtful piece, also addressing the high price of that, amongst other things.
I know I used my PTSD "fight" survival response to get as much "revenge" on the two perps in my life as I could/ as I felt was morally justified. I did nothing anywhere near as terrible as what they did, but I made sure that both of them paid a very high price so that they will regret ever having crossed my path and having chosen to f*ck me over for no reason.
I don't know if it was the right choice. As the interview/ book explores, it comes at a high personal price. I do think it's part of what helped me survive tho.
In other ways, it's made moving on and healing harder. I'm not sure I'd go back and change it tho. It felt important to defend myself, to be defiant, to do what I could to avenge the harm that was done.