Rising, Healing

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Listened to a book by Mirna- something (“Fat Girl Running”). At the end, there was a section that included some mantras to use. One example was, “I love myself unconditionally, right now.” I realized I can’t say it. Not yet, at least. I had been looking into metta meditation before the wedding, and now I think i’ve confirmed I need this in my life. The ability to love myself. To say it and mean it.

 

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Knowing is helping. Re-admitting to myself that (12 years later) PTSD seems here to stay for me. But, Incan manage it when I’m paying attention. Best meditation in a while for me today. Just 5 minutes, but so comfortable.

 

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An unpleasantnfirat. Dissociated sex with husband. Not sure how to habdle yet. Nothing terrible. Not sure of much. But, not thrilled. Hoping it’s an anomaly.