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Now when it comes to the stuff my ex did... He WAS terrible... SO upsetting the things he did to me...
I saw my ex a couple weeks weeks ago... I got so scared. Even after almost 3.5 years later and there is still the same reactions he put into me... that he wanted me to have... that he caused me to have... before he would do things he made sure he caused me to have enough terror that I would dissociate this making me kind of like a doll that didn't talk back and that listen to him and only him... he would whisper things in my ear while in these states... he got in there somehow... now when I see him places that same panic, fear, and eventually (if the fear gets to be to much) I go into that state where I am so zoned out... it's horrible. It's like I'm a ghost.
I saw my ex a couple weeks weeks ago... I got so scared. Even after almost 3.5 years later and there is still the same reactions he put into me... that he wanted me to have... that he caused me to have... before he would do things he made sure he caused me to have enough terror that I would dissociate this making me kind of like a doll that didn't talk back and that listen to him and only him... he would whisper things in my ear while in these states... he got in there somehow... now when I see him places that same panic, fear, and eventually (if the fear gets to be to much) I go into that state where I am so zoned out... it's horrible. It's like I'm a ghost.
