So...tuesday I Was Fired. Actually A Good Thing.

[Chimera]

@cupfish I appreciate that, but the truth is that the state I live in is an "at will" employment state. It is difficult to even broach a complaint, let alone a case.
It was a small business and they had no prior understanding of my ptsd. It is what it is. There are more important battles to be fought :)
I've always done my best, most lucrative work when I was steering my own ship, I think it's time to look at this again.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

:hug: @Chimera
I wish you luck

 

[mary1979]

With or without anxiety, job hunting and job interviews are WITHOUT a doubt THE hardest things most of us will ever do.

I struggled for years with the concept and as a result never gained any real, practical experience in any field, flitting about from job to job through mostly word of mouth.

Rejection and most sufferers do not sit well, let alone with the added pressure of knowing you have a family you must provide for.

Thinking positive for you @Chimera.
As always with these things, when the time is right, the perfect opportunity will fall in your lap.

 

[cupfish]

Go get em!

 

[Powder]

@Chimera

You've always kept a level head on this forum, and you speak very calmly here. I sincerely doubt you are a mess.

Most likely the people you've been forced to spend time with are the mess and they have "gaslit" you while you were distracted, actually doing your job, because you love it and have a good flow while working, normally.

Have you considered working for a larger than 200 employee and/or gov't employer, basically, an employer that has to be responsible?


I'm a very "sensitive" person,

In your case, there is a very strong and clear message to run an internet search for openings in food service on a secure, military training base in your area (if any), of all places. It would be that you would need a ride there, but they would connect you with a kind coworker near you willing to carpool. And they would ALL be grateful for a good chef, although, they'd have to start you on a trial or lower pay base and you'd move up in 6 months to a lead position, which is actually good to ease into that role.

I'm sure that's the last place you'd think you'd want to go, and PTSD won't be discussed openly there, for sure, but you'll be surrounded by people who really need nourishment to prevent and deal with naturally, their own stress and stress disorders.

At least I suggest run a search for any Training Centers in your area and go from there. Likely a private caterer has a contract.

 

[Chimera]

@Muse
Smiles.
I will do this, been feeling a pull in this direction, I wasn't sure how to approach it or even what the pull was about.

I know what this is and I thank you for it. blessings.

 

[Powder]

Same here. Strong pull is exactly right. Usually, that's a very good sign that it's for a beneficial reason, but not always as easy as we'd like it to be.

I do with you all the best and do think you're a wonderful person who deserves better.

Blessings right back.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

THat is a very interesting proposal, but I guess it could work :hug: :)

 

[Mike W]

Thank you for posting Chimera, I could relate to a lot of your experience and don't feel as alone.

It does sound like you were set up and gaslit. My former employer did the same to me - deliberately and repeatedly put me on the busiest shifts working alone while preferred employees worked quieter shifts with many employees working. Withheld communication and resources I needed to do my job, then used my "failure to perform" ( former managers words, often emailed in bold full caps) as a reason for reprimand and humiliation.

I thought I was the only one that horrible people did this kind of thing to. I'm very sorry this happened to you too. Thanks again for posting.

 

[Chimera]

@Mike W
I am happy that this helps you to feel less alone, your response does the same for me..
I am also sorry you understand where I am coming from, so baffling to me that folks are actively, purposefully putting others in positions to fail. But it is real and something we have to deal with. I hope you find better work, a job where you feel engaged and valued, don't give up.
Feel free to let me know if you would like to talk about this.
And welcome to the forums, this is a solid, safe place to learn and grow.

 

[Chimera]

2 applications filled and sent off.

Anxiety spikes with each send.

If I wasn't limited in my ability to travel, I'd have sent off a barrage of them and just dealt with this high dis ease.
Still fighting with some shame about my ptsd (possibly) being known in this town..

Realized something about my professional life, it is a pretty big trigger for me. And it always has been. I worked for my Dad's (stepfather) company when I was a young teenager, very safe environment, but once outside that sphere it just became highly triggering to me When I was younger, it was men in power positions making sexual advances that would just send me over the edge, full blown episode. I'd quit within a month if I made it that long. Then as I became more mature, it was the cattiness in white color environments as well as a fear of sexual advances, seemed like some guy always took it too far, or maybe my sensitivity was heightened disproportionately.
Then I believe it just became a cycle..the only time I could really excel was when I worked independently. But the depression has always popped up and I'd struggle hard to keep the ground I'd gained. Just convoluted and disappointing.
Going to work on being more in tune with what's going on in my thoughts and try to stay self aware and a thanks for all who've shown support♡

 

[Deleted member 12723]

@Chimera :hug:

I understand the stress of not being employed. It is very stressful for me. Hang in there. I think that your Karma Insurance is paid off by now.