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BirdsThatFly
Hi 
I am trying to heal CPTSD, and in the process I've now started parts work along with the somatic practice. As I connected with a child part of myself, I now have started having images accompanied by really disgusting feelings. Images of sexual abuse. These flashes have previously come up while I was around external triggers, but I pushed it down. I have been told that I went from being not shy, to not wanting to be showered as a young child. So clearly something did happen. I told my mom resterday, and she just said that maybe it's just false memories. Making me feel very invalidated, because it feels so real. Yet now I'm questioning if it's a false memory, because it's a family member in question. No sound or taste. Just flashes of image and a deep seated feeling that it happened. The individual in question has verbally abused me my entire life and has never really been there emotionally. Completely self involved too.
I'm curious if anyone with some knowledge on the topic could share their thoughts. Thanks for taking the time to read! Thanks

I am trying to heal CPTSD, and in the process I've now started parts work along with the somatic practice. As I connected with a child part of myself, I now have started having images accompanied by really disgusting feelings. Images of sexual abuse. These flashes have previously come up while I was around external triggers, but I pushed it down. I have been told that I went from being not shy, to not wanting to be showered as a young child. So clearly something did happen. I told my mom resterday, and she just said that maybe it's just false memories. Making me feel very invalidated, because it feels so real. Yet now I'm questioning if it's a false memory, because it's a family member in question. No sound or taste. Just flashes of image and a deep seated feeling that it happened. The individual in question has verbally abused me my entire life and has never really been there emotionally. Completely self involved too.
I'm curious if anyone with some knowledge on the topic could share their thoughts. Thanks for taking the time to read! Thanks
