Well where do i start, i came to this great site at the beggining of march of this year as i was in a very dark place, & had really know where to turn to. Since being here , i have found so much compassion , & understanding from all ,even know i did not do a great deal. I spent 10 years in the australian army, as a medic & was d/c with ptsd due to service related trauma. The time that i have spent on this site, has introduced me to some very amazing & special people, which i have become very close with, they know who they are, & i thank you so much for your support & understanding. Every one on this site has a story to tell, about what happened to them , & how they were affected, There is one person who i have become very close to since being here & have had so much support from her, she is one of the bravest , stongest , most caring person i have ever had the pleasure of knowing, her name is Femalevet, & yes i do care greatly about this very brave young women, she has been through so much & more than i can ever imagine , & yes this is not a dating site it is a combat ptsd site, & if my member ship is cancelled because of my feelings towards this person , then so be it , but i hope that it does not come to that. Every one on this site in my eyes is brave & has served there respective countries with pride & so much courage , & i have so much respect for every one here. So i think i will get to the point here , Femalevet & myself are, i suppose having a long distance relationship, so i thought i would just share this with all you great people, i will be flying to the America in august to meet this amazing women & who knows what could happen , life is to short so i am going to make the most of it, & i suppose i do love this girl, respect her & would be so proud to walk by her side as i think she is a hero, like so many of you great people here. I know Jacqueline feels the same so if any one does feel that i have stepped over the line please don't be frightened to dish it up, but im pretty sure that is not going to happen. What better than two people who have ptsd to have a understanding of each other, i think so anyway,so any problems out there let me know & i shall cancell my membership staight away. Willis williams thank you so much for your support mate , you are a true friend, & if things do go to plan , yes mate you will be my best man. Jacqueline i do love you with all my heart & you are my hero. Cheers every one . Matt.