A lot of that sounds like a familiar pattern. Good luck! I hope the new place comes through with no complications and it turns out to be a good move!
Except that it sounds like you WILL have a roof over your head, it's just a question of which roof.Life's like standing on quicksand, while trying to juggle
That's a horrible feeling!it all feels so shitty and miserable and doomed and back to front
This reminds me of when I first started working freelance...
I'd say you're exactly right, it's pretty much the same situation. Fortunately, you've had practice handling situations like that!So this feels kind of similar...
You wouldn't. (Would you?) The question seems to be, "How realistic is that fear?" I'm not a cat person. (There's a cat that lives here, but she's more of an employee, although I like her.) I HAVE, though, lived on busy roads with dogs where the dog survived the experience. Mostly because the dog never went outside alone. Things can go wrong and pets can get killed, but it doesn't HAVE to happen. Unless maybe there are going to be irresponsible people going in & out of your house who might let an animal escape? Or your animals are really bent on escaping? No way for me to know, but take a look at the facts because feelings have a way of obscuring reality sometimes.Why would I bring my pets if I know they're going to get killed in the near future.
IF that happens to be the case right now, remember, you don't have to stay there forever. Maybe you stay there until you find something better? All those old feelings wrapped around this situation make it more complicated. I wish that wasn't true for you. It's good that you realize that a lot of what you're dealing with is childhood feelings being stirred up and make it hard to see the facts of the current situation. Does writing about it help? For me, sometimes it helps to make a list of pros and cons. Writing things out that way seems to engage the more rational part of my brain. What happened with the farm? (Did I miss that?)Feels like I have to take the least-shit-option so that I don't end up homeless.
I think that's a good question to ask yourself. It's something I've learned to try to notice. If I feel relieved, then I know it was the right choice. Sometimes, I use this phenomenon to help make decisions. I'll tell myself I'll flip a coin, heads I do A, tails B. If I then find I want to do "best 2 out of 3" then I know what I really want.How do you feel after withdrawing the application (