Hello, I’m searching for ways to deal with symptoms from my PTSD. I was recently diagnosed with PTSD but I have struggled with it for years. I did not seek help before because I thought that I could handle it myself and I did not want it to affect my military career. My symptoms have gotten much worse over the past few months and have affected my home life and overall mental health tremendously. I am still active duty in the military and my PTSD events happened as part of my military job. The current job that I’m in exposes me to an environment that causes almost continuous flashbacks, depression and nightmares. When I walk into the building, I feel as though a dark cloud of depression is over me and I cannot be happy no matter how hard I try. I am fairly senior and that has made it harder for me to seek help because I don‘t want to face the shame and even greater sense of failure from those I work with or for. Once I did finally seek help, I was placed in a Limited Duty Status and removed from my leadership position. I was approached by many of my peers at work who asked if i was ”okay”. This led me to again try to cover up, down play or even lie to them in order to try and reduce the seriousness of my PTSD and my associated symptoms (Has anyone else done this because it makes me feel even worse that I don’t feel that I can be truthful). This has been further complicated by having my leaders leak my previous medical information to those that I work with. I deal with daily symptoms such as nightmares, paranoia, anxiety, severe depression, ANGER, IRRITATABILITY, lack of motivation, lack of ability to concentrate or focus, feeling of wanting to isolate myself, challenges with remembering simple things, and lack of sleep. I find myself lying to those around me and trying to act as normal as possible at work while sneaking off and isolating myself in places like the restroom or my vehicle to deal with my anxiety, panic episodes, depression, and fears. I’m tired of living this life. I’m tired of not having the motivation to do simple things. I’m tired of living in fear. I constantly feel like a failure because I was in charge during the two events that caused my PTSD and it has made me feel as though I’m a constant failure and incapable of making decisions. I have started seeing a therapist but wanted to know if anyone had any other helpful hints that have worked for them and similar PTSD symptoms. I am also on medication but have not seen positive results to date. I have a wonderful wife and family and I need to get this under control for them and myself so I’m reaching out to this support group to enlist additional helpful methods and support outside of my therapist. Thank you for the time that you took to read my post and consider solutions to my issues.