Suffered In Silence, Time To Speak Out

[Marchesa]

Hi! I found this site today and after suffering alone for over four years I finally feel ready to share and hopefully find some understanding. Ideally I'd like to help others but like many I do still have my bad days.

 

[MurphyJB]

Hi, Dania.
Welcome to the forum. :)

 

[Marchesa]

Thank you MurphyJB.

Just been having a look around the forums here and feeling wow, there are people who feel the same as me!

 

[intothelight]

Hi Dania,

Welcome to the forum. It is always such a relief to find there are other people who feel and think the same way. This is a very supportive community and wonderful to work with others as we all learn to heal.

Wishing you the best.
Debbie

 

[Froggie]

what a beautiful name ... Dania ... welcome to the forum. As intothelight mentionned, you will find many people to relate with, this is such a wonderful place and has been something that has helped me greatly with my ptsd. There are many great articles which help understand what we have, some great suggestions and tricks, great converstations concerning medication and their effects, what works on whom and not on others, same thing for therapy. there is alot of guidance to keep our feet grounded, and the best ... the wonderful people you can meet.

 

[cherryblossom]

Welcome to the forum :)

 

[KP the nut]

Hi Dania, you have a nice name. Let me join the others in wishing you welcome.

Although I have a supportive family, this is the place I have found understanding. I have made some great friends who show such courage and compassion and support.

Take your time, I found reading the articles and other posts especially helpful.

Take care
KP

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome to the forum.

I had a big problem with silence too, speaking helped a lot. Even changed how I looked at the world. ( In a very good way)

Good Luck! :)

 

[Marchesa]

Thank you to everyone for the positive feedback.

I am not really ready to talk about my trauma but I will get there but for now it triggers a huge amount of angst to think about the past. I am more at the stage of dealing with the fallout and seeking the answers for my symptoms. It has been a rocky road with a major setback but I am now settled and secure so will develop a relationship with my new doctor with a view to hopefully get some issues sorted out.

 

[cherryblossom]

No-one here will ever try to force you to talk about your trauma. But in all honesty, the only way to deal with your symptoms/fallout, is to talk about and resolve your trauma. You may find the following article interesting [DLMURL]http://www.ptsdforum.org/c/threads/exposure-therapy-for-ptsd.13908/#post-174366[/DLMURL]

I hope you have a good relationship with your new Doctor, and sincerely recommend specialist trauma therapy.

All the best
CB

 

[Marchesa]

Hi CB,

Thank you for the advice and the link. I have been having councilling the past four years or so but only recently saw a psychiatrist who gave me the diagnosis although I have long suspected I had PTSD through my own research.

And therein lies one of the major problems, getting people to understand and to realize. The fact that previous doctors and people close to me do not comprehend that I need more than 'just a holiday' is so frustrating and undoubtedly acts as a trigger when I come up against it - which is frequently - and also fuels my reluctance to speak out.

My new doctor fell into this category and it has taken my past psychiatrist to write a letter to tell him in no uncertain terms that I need therapy. However that was a week ago and no appointment or referral as yet. I just feel I am constantly banging my head on a brick wall and I am exhausted by it, at the end of my tether like I have been fighting a loosing battle too long. One tiny piece of stress sends me spiraling out of control yet I know I have to face these things, find the strength from somewhere to push on and get the help I need.

I should add that I am in England and as I have not been able to hold down a job for a year I do not have the money for private health care so have to wait for my doctor to decide what he believes is right for me. He reluctantly agreed to a blood test and was very surprised when it came back with a 1.6 white blood cell count last week - I am hoping he will now realize I am not a hypochondriac, and the problems with my immune system are not imaginary.

However, I know this is a safe place and coming to terms with the past will be half the battle won.

 

[KP the nut]

I should add that I am in England and as I have not been able to hold down a job for a year I do not have the money for private health care so have to wait for my doctor to decide what he believes is right for me.
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Hi Dania, I am also in England and my advice to you would be to fight for your right to have treatment.

I would go see your doctor, very nicely and politely Tell him that you want to be assessed by a counsellor/therapist. I don't know how your PTSD came about but it is really important that you see a therapist.

I was v lucky I was referred to a counsellor who as it happens specialised in trauma. I see him weekly for EMDR.

If the doctor doesn't do this, see another doctor within the practice. You deserve treatment on the NHS.

OMG, I've just read this, I don't mean to lecture you, I just hate it when doctors don't listen.

I hope you find help. At least you are now here with friends who understand.

(((HUGS))) if you will accept them
KP

PS. I am in Shropshire