whiteraven
Diamond Member
I'm plagued again with these constant (and, it would seem, uncontrollable) images of death - people and pets near to me dying or dead - and it takes any good I have in my day and turns it to shit. I was actually feeling better a little last week and then this started on Monday and I was plunged back into a deep depression, along with intense suicidal thoughts.
For months now, I've had a very strong sense that I am at the end of things. That there is just not point to going on and that everything I do is pointless. Several things I've tried to do to move forward and make changes have fallen through and I really am just getting by each day until my next. I'm struggling financially, which makes doing the things I'd like to do nearly impossible, and even surviving difficult some weeks.
I don't think I will ever feel better. I have been sad for sooo long. I am so tired.
For months now, I've had a very strong sense that I am at the end of things. That there is just not point to going on and that everything I do is pointless. Several things I've tried to do to move forward and make changes have fallen through and I really am just getting by each day until my next. I'm struggling financially, which makes doing the things I'd like to do nearly impossible, and even surviving difficult some weeks.
I don't think I will ever feel better. I have been sad for sooo long. I am so tired.
