I am so upset right now and before. i am watching tv and i used to be like ooo i can't wait to see what happens to see my favorite couples or singles. now i just don't have favorites any more and don't feel connected to my favorite character's in my favorite TV shows. I watch em because I know they were/are my favorites.
My list of symptoms. I kind of have a gut feeling that it's not PTSD but something worse. I guess I am hoping it is something worse so that it's easily fixed.
It feels like my first 24 years of life has disappeared... and i'm just left here on earth not really knowing why i was put here.
Symptoms
- dizziness 24/7... Most days it effects my driving but if i can get into the car and just stare out the window the dizziness stops and i am able to drive. but sometimes i'm scared one day it won't go away and i'll be stuck.
- different eye sight then before. I have had the same eyesight for pratically all my life (as far as i can remember actually) and now it's different. it's clearer and scarier.
- No imagination - what-so ever. My imagination was the thing that made me "me." I was bad in school but was great with imagination which allowed me to write poems and short stories.
- Can't really read... I can but it's only words on a page. Doesn't have a meaning.
- Emotions. Not really sad/happy at things i should be happy or sad at. But i do think about the person i was and cry.
- I feel like I'm "mute." I know what I want to say but I can't get them out as hard as I try i can't. not even with family.
- No interests.
- haven't slept in over a year.
- I don't feel connected to anybody not even family. sometimes i think perhaps i should give my dog back to the shelter since i am emotionally attached.
- I don't care about anything/anyone. but when i hold animals i deeply care about it and want to bring it home but i cant because my parents won't let me and I know i won't feel attached when i get it home but it brings me joy for those few minutes.
- i'm never hungry but when i just eat something i'm still hungry even though i might have just eaten a big meal...
help?
My list of symptoms. I kind of have a gut feeling that it's not PTSD but something worse. I guess I am hoping it is something worse so that it's easily fixed.
It feels like my first 24 years of life has disappeared... and i'm just left here on earth not really knowing why i was put here.
Symptoms
- dizziness 24/7... Most days it effects my driving but if i can get into the car and just stare out the window the dizziness stops and i am able to drive. but sometimes i'm scared one day it won't go away and i'll be stuck.
- different eye sight then before. I have had the same eyesight for pratically all my life (as far as i can remember actually) and now it's different. it's clearer and scarier.
- No imagination - what-so ever. My imagination was the thing that made me "me." I was bad in school but was great with imagination which allowed me to write poems and short stories.
- Can't really read... I can but it's only words on a page. Doesn't have a meaning.
- Emotions. Not really sad/happy at things i should be happy or sad at. But i do think about the person i was and cry.
- I feel like I'm "mute." I know what I want to say but I can't get them out as hard as I try i can't. not even with family.
- No interests.
- haven't slept in over a year.
- I don't feel connected to anybody not even family. sometimes i think perhaps i should give my dog back to the shelter since i am emotionally attached.
- I don't care about anything/anyone. but when i hold animals i deeply care about it and want to bring it home but i cant because my parents won't let me and I know i won't feel attached when i get it home but it brings me joy for those few minutes.
- i'm never hungry but when i just eat something i'm still hungry even though i might have just eaten a big meal...
help?