Taking cover

[Raj]

My hyper vigilance is getting worse! I peek out of my house and feel like everyone might shoot me or be judging me. In stores I panic when going around corners and think of how to defend myself going around the corner. When crowded I leave my family on there own in the store and lock myself in the car.

Raj

 

[Raj]

Well I was right some guy in pickup tried to ram our van today! Hyped vigilance is good!

Raj

 

[provencepearl]

My hyper vigilance is getting worse! I peek out of my house and feel like everyone might shoot me or be ju...

I also have hypervigilance. I stopped answering door years ago. Stopped using phone. Anyone who wants to communicate with me needs to send a letter or email. Feels safer. I stopped giving out an address, only a p o box. I startle easily. I avoid direct contact with people. People want to do everything on a phone or in a noise environment. So I have very little social contact. I no longer care if people ridicule me or ostracize me for needing to be safe. No one cares about my safety. Their convenience and their pleasure is all they care about. Harm to me or my death is nothing to them. So I really have no choice but to protect myself the only way I know how. As I am non-violent, I need to keep a distance.

If the world were kinder, more caring, offered safety, I would not need to do this.