The Anp

[The ANP]

f*ck you. f*ck you ten times over. I have never meant "duck you"... except when you swung at my head. Duck you ten times over...
A lot of the time I pretend to feel normal. Connected. Reciprocal. In truth, I have limited continuity. I only pretend the dots make sense when I connect them. Sure, looks like a cat, tastes like a nasturtium... luxurious! {(0)}
C=====B cuz it's backward to duck you.
I loved choking on your cock. It's ducked up and funny how trauma can masquerade as sexy and orgasms can get crosswired.

 

[The ANP]

Merry Christmas or happy holidays or some shit. Whatever dills your pickle. I like at least 6. Steady every night. Keeps me regular.
Got a smoke?
What to put in , what to keep out? Hairs and strings. Nobody strums your toon.
I told my therapist I have to watch out for lynchings in public spaces.
f*ck. You. Highscool.
f*ck you family more f*cked up than me.
f*ck. Me.

I have a lover
More f*cked upthsn me
Or is he?

Oh, it would be so easy to loose myself in your problems.
Not today, not tonight.
I will cull my demons in the night
Alone, and cold.
Thank you. For that hug,and that hug and that hug
While I silently spat my voice.

The truth is in free flow.
The beast edits Instagram.
I. Am. Afraid.
I. Love. Another. Stereotype of co-dependancy.

Don't know how to be me.