greycrayon
Bronze Member
I am wondering if someone can relate. I am somewhere on the dissociation scale...and only at the beginning of finding out that dissociation is a real state of mind and that there are valid reasons as to why I've felt this way all my life.
I do have a distant memory of going to my key worker in a state and saying that I had alters. I was in a distressed state and felt that I needed to talk, however my body wouldn't let me go further, almost as if I was locked out of control and it was imperative that (I?) could not talk about anything related to alters or parts. Sometimes I find it very hard to read about dissociation, like I'll find myself screwing my eyes shut or avoiding looking at an area on a page.
Has anyone else seemed to be dissociated about their dissociation? Has anyone ever had any "raw" parts, it seems like theirs an inner trip wire so that the level of dissociation is not discovered.
I do have a distant memory of going to my key worker in a state and saying that I had alters. I was in a distressed state and felt that I needed to talk, however my body wouldn't let me go further, almost as if I was locked out of control and it was imperative that (I?) could not talk about anything related to alters or parts. Sometimes I find it very hard to read about dissociation, like I'll find myself screwing my eyes shut or avoiding looking at an area on a page.
Has anyone else seemed to be dissociated about their dissociation? Has anyone ever had any "raw" parts, it seems like theirs an inner trip wire so that the level of dissociation is not discovered.
