Time Of The Year

[Anna]

Has anyone else noticed recently in the past few months, that their symptoms are getting worse? or finding it hard to hold it together? No idea why but I feel like I am slipping and am fighting really hard to hold myself together. It seems around me others are also having trouble.

Anyone else feeling uneasy the past few months?

 

[Lionheart]

Hi Anna,

My symptoms do get worse in the fall and winter (October to March). This is partially due to anniversary reactions and also due to Seasonal Affective Disorder (S.A.D.). When I was a child I had one safe place. That safe place was exposed when the leaves fell off the trees, so that I was no longer safe.

I had some very unfortunate things happen to me because of this and I feel varying degrees of depression and hopelessness at this time of year as a result. When the leaves fall from the trees in the fall, it makes me cry and feel afraid. Add to that memories of abuse, the winter holidays, the increase in the suicide rate, the cold weather, dangerous driving conditions, crowded stores etc. and it becomes easy to see why I dislike that time of year.

So happy that spring is finally here!
I hope your symptoms decrease as time goes by.

 

[TSG]

I have been falling apart since November. My recent attack was just after my birthday on November 15. I had surgery with complications right after. Trial days and reliving the trauma in a room of people was 12/7-9. I guess I now associate my b-day, Thanksgiving and Christmas with the trauma. Not sure why it's still bad at the end of March but it seems worse this month. No clue why.

 

[crazytrain]

I also start the "trauma cycle", which is my own term, around Fall. My abuse started in the winter time, so I start feeling more of the depression and anxiety during the Fall and Winter. I have found that sports helps me out a lot. I play volleyball and wallyball a couple of times a week. I consider myself to sort of have a "high-functioning" PTSD. I don't know if that is because I have had it for so long and didn't know it until recently, or if I am simply one tough bugger! I like to think that it is a combination of both!