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Stancatissima
Hello - Sorry I'm "late" to this thread, but here goes.
I'm 60, in the US. Diagnoses: CPTSD, mild ASD, ADHD, Dyscalculia, History of Major Depression, Dysthymia. High on ACES test. Mother was BPD with narcissism, dad was undiagnosed ASD/ADHD (and a lifelong enabler), parents divorced when I was 8.
I've never had dissociation - I remember EVERYTHING. I have done traditional CBT therapies on and off for over 30 years. Nothing worked, so 14 months ago I got with a new therapist for EMDR. All on video, I can't find anyone near me to do this in person. The first few passes really activated my amygdala - I started having nightmares. Since last Fall I noticed that all stopped - no more processing. Therapist said to try some Parts Work, which I've done in the past, but OK, worth a try.
So here we are >6 months later and while my ruminations are decreased, I am constantly being triggered by those I am closest to in life because thanks to my broken brain I am surrounded by people with unaddressed mental illness. I have to walk on eggshells in my own home. I get no help with running that household either. I'm exhausted. I'm also thinking the EMDR is not working for me. I have HUNDREDS of traumatic episodes. In the past year I think we've gone through 4 of the bigger ones.
I think I need to stop EMDR and maybe focus on neurofeedback? (Which means switching therapists.) Pro tips anyone?
I'm 60, in the US. Diagnoses: CPTSD, mild ASD, ADHD, Dyscalculia, History of Major Depression, Dysthymia. High on ACES test. Mother was BPD with narcissism, dad was undiagnosed ASD/ADHD (and a lifelong enabler), parents divorced when I was 8.
I've never had dissociation - I remember EVERYTHING. I have done traditional CBT therapies on and off for over 30 years. Nothing worked, so 14 months ago I got with a new therapist for EMDR. All on video, I can't find anyone near me to do this in person. The first few passes really activated my amygdala - I started having nightmares. Since last Fall I noticed that all stopped - no more processing. Therapist said to try some Parts Work, which I've done in the past, but OK, worth a try.
So here we are >6 months later and while my ruminations are decreased, I am constantly being triggered by those I am closest to in life because thanks to my broken brain I am surrounded by people with unaddressed mental illness. I have to walk on eggshells in my own home. I get no help with running that household either. I'm exhausted. I'm also thinking the EMDR is not working for me. I have HUNDREDS of traumatic episodes. In the past year I think we've gone through 4 of the bigger ones.
I think I need to stop EMDR and maybe focus on neurofeedback? (Which means switching therapists.) Pro tips anyone?
