Tired Of It Always Being My Fault

[Futuremrs]

I don't know what to do anymore, everything makes him angry. Today it's me. He's finally in therapy and I thought we were at least doing a little better, but I guess not. I was on the phone with my best friend too long and bothered him. He's back into his world of video games ignoring me. It's so hard, I feel like I have no one to turn to. I'm supposed to be planning our wedding and whenever stuff like this happens I get scared.

I know he'll come and apologize and say he loves me, but this feeling is terrible. I cry so much now and that was never me. I feel like one day he's just going to decide to be done. He came in here to tell me I'm really not making him happy. I don't know what to do anymore....I feel so unappreciated and empty inside.

 

[Purplemunchkin]

:hug: @Futuremrs

I had one of those evenings yesterday. As soon as I walked in the door after work I could tell he was in that frame of mind.

I just concentrate on remembering the good stuff. The 'why I'm here' bits. There are lots of them.

Some lyrics from a Matt Goss song spring to mind "I understand that there must be pain, It's designed to illuminate the joy".

Good luck with the wedding planning (it's our first wedding anniversary next week).

x

 

[Futuremrs]

Yeah, I know that look.

I try to do that, but sometimes I catch myself wondering what I am doing. Why I am putting myself through this. I love him and he tries very hard to make me happy when he can.

Thanks we're going to a wedding show tomorrow! It's the first real wedding thing we've done since we got engaged!

Congrats!!!:)