Totally Lost My Ability To Look After Myself

[joeylittle]

Good work, @NatBird - sometimes digging into the things we've been avoiding ends up showing us more about ourselves. But try not to frowny-face it...this is a real step forward for you. I say :tup::)

 

[vivalatapping]

that is sad....why you don't care of yourself...eating better food....you know bad food can cause more mental problems

 

[NatBird]

that is sad....why you don't care of yourself...eating better food....you know bad food can cause...

@vivalatapping who are you talking to?

 

[NatBird]

Update:

I've cleared the hallway and storage area. Yey!:)

I've been gifted with a conversation that has helped me to see that the clutter has been a layer of 'protection'. I've been using the state of my homeas an excuse to not have people in. I've created that situation to insulate the shame (which helps me retain a false sense of control) and for fear of being harmed - humiliated, ridiculed attacked.
I feel sadness as well as relief and excitement about getting an inner/felt understanding of this. I'm also appreciating how lucky I am to live in such a airy, light filled spacious flat.

I'll now go get some food to cook in my filthy kitchen! One step at a time eh!

Thanks for witnessing:)