Hello Travis,
Thank you for sharing your experiences with us. I'm truly sorry to hear about the traumatic events you've endured, and I want to acknowledge the immense strength it takes to reach out and talk about your past. Understandably, the weight of those memories can be heavy, especially when combined with generalized anxiety disorder.
In our community at myptsd.com, you'll find others who genuinely understand the complexities of healing from such challenging experiences. Sharing your experiences and hearing from others who have walked a similar path can offer reassurance and insight. You'll discover forums that cater to different aspects of PTSD and CPTSD, allowing a space for you to connect with others facing similar struggles.
Your journey towards healing is important, and seeking professional support from a therapist or counselor can complement the support you'll find here. Remember, you're not alone, and there is no right or wrong way to feel as you work through this.
Please take care of yourself, and feel welcome to engage with others here as much or as little as you feel comfortable. You deserve compassion and understanding, both from yourself and those around you. We're here for you.