Sufferer Trying To Accept My Diagnosis

[Fayth]

I joined this group today in hopes that I can come to terms with my diagnosis of PTSD with what they call somatization. I don't understand all this yet and with others that have the same difficulties perhaps I can feel like I am not all alone in this. I feel like I am living in a dream and this all isn't real, I don't want to leave my house or be around anyone, I just want to crawl in a whole and be left alone, I used to be a social butterfly and so outgoing, not anymore. my head feels like a fog today, like I am not here....My story starts at a very young age with molestation, rape as a teen and almost loosing my life at 31 to a massive heart attack, this was the kicker, I handled life pretty well up until my heart attack. After calling 911 I was left by the EMT's saying I was just having a panic attack and to just chill, well I was actually dying....never had a panic attack before, but I sure do now. So now here I am with symptoms that make me feel like I am someone else, I feel like I lost myself along the way. I see a psychologist now and am just starting treatment so this is very new to me...If I didnt have my faith in God I wouldn't be here, I know he is with me every step of the way and that keeps me strong, hence my user name fayth...faith was taken lol

 

[Casey_03]

Warm welcome, @Fayth! I hope we can help you feel like yourself again. Feel free to ask us anything or vent if you need to, we will understand.

 

[Nighthawk]

Hi welcome :) Your are not alone many of us suffer simillar symptoms.

I am glad you found the forum.

 

[joeylittle]

Welcome to the forum, @Fayth - good job on getting yourself into treatment, and I hope the community here provides you with information and support. You are definitely not alone.

 

[intothelight]

@Fayth Welcome to the forum!

I joined this group today in hopes that I can come to terms with my diagnosis of Link Removed with what they call somatization.

This site is a great place to learn about PTSD and also about the various techniques and therapies that members have found helpful. I hope you find this site beneficial to your own healing.

 

[Fayth]

Thank you to everyone for the warm welcome, does this site allow for a daily diary? I read through the into but am not certain on all the things offered

 

[intothelight]

@Fayth There is a place for diaries (Trauma Diaries) and you will see them on the main Forum page.