Uniform.

[Privateer]

I just got pulled up at work about the state of my uniform.

'Hah!' I hear you cry, 'What trifling nonsense is this?'

Well, that's what I'd think, usually. A minor annoyance or embarrassment.

Not today, though. Today I feel humiiated and depressed. I'm also disgusted at myself and more than a little afraid.

Back when I had a green uniform instead of a black and white one, we were always told to keep an eye on our guys in case they started showing signs of stress like, for example, letting their personal admin go to pot.

Apparently I've reached the stage where I don't iron my shirt or polish my shoes and I hadn't even really noticed. Not only that, but I seem to have put on weight at an alarming rate.

This isn't good. Not at all.

 

[p-no]

:hug: (I wish those smileys weren't smiling...)

I am sorry you feel the way you do, but find it a normal reaction to some extent. The upside of this is that someone noticed and told you. You said you had not noticed you put on weight to this extent. Now you can take it in and do something with this realization. This is, ultimately, a good thing, even when it feels all but.

I know it sounds so blank sometimes, but I swear I mean it: be kind to yourself. You deserve it.

 

[Bill Dickerson]

Take advantage of any programs your department has. If they don't have any then find something in the private field. You have an advantage many don't have. You were given some insight. Sounds like you are taking it to heart.

Unfortunately LEO's have a tendency to be so independent they often don't ask for help. Take advantage of this insight.