Usmc/active With Ptsd

[OutKast-6]

Good afternoon all, OutKast on deck. I'm an active duty Marine Staff Sgt (E-6) with 18 years & 8 months time in service. I'm currently stateside & located in Virginia.

I'm a combat vet of Afghanistan (2009) & also Iraq during the 2003 initial push & also in Fallujah in the 2004-2005 Operation Phantom Fury.

It took me over a decade to finally get help, but I have... and I've been diagnosed with PTSD, Major Depression, & Anxiety Disorder.

I'm also physically broken with back issues, peripheral neuropathy, an upcoming total hip replacement on 30 April 15, etc...

I'm walking on the razor's edge in dealing/ controlling/ holding in my rage... my demons. I feel consumed by a darkness & am on a roller coaster of feeling either nothing or feeling anger... I'm the only combat vet where I work & feel that they are out to get me... I got plenty more to say but I lost the ability to finish this intro right now... I'm over it.

Hope to have a support system here with you folks...

 

[atilla]

Welcome Home Brother, you're not alone. We do support each other here. The "beast", as we call ptsd here, is always lurking. I can say that being here and meeting the brothers and sisters on here, has made a big difference in how I deal with things on a daily basis. There's great people here and a wealth of info on the beast. You're among friendlies here Brother. Check out the media section, and the posts. Glad you found us.

 

[Friday]

SemperFi. Damn fine people here, for true, from all conflicts all over. Jump on in, thrash it on out. Killer f*cking knowledge kicking around these rooms. Welcome, brother.

 

[Woodman]

Welcome and glad you're here. Semper Fi

 

[Deleted member 43454]

Welcome to the forum, OutKast-6.

 

[SGT Crim1]

You gotta friend in me marine

 

[rickyfinch]

Hello brother. Welcome, lots of good folks here with shit loads of great information. Heads up, and push on man.

 

[Sleeping Dragon]

Welcome Marine,

Please keep this in mind. You're looking at the world through the eyes of a warrior. That makes your perspective very different than those who haven't spent their time in the killing fields. That's one of the big reasons you feel so out of place.

Your warrior eyes can learn to see the beauty that the world still has to offer. But, it takes time and lots of practice. Posting here was a first step. We call them baby steps. Keep taking them each and every day. They'll take you to a better place.

Read through the threads here, and watch the videos. They'll help you understand what kind of steps we're talking about. Stay close and post often.

SD

 

[BaMuoiBa]

OOHRAH marine!!

Welcome to the forum brother. Your among friendlies so take a knee. Us old Nam shits know a bit about being lonely among so-called friends. You got 18 already in the shitter so don't let the a$$holes get in your head. Remember the mission get to the finish line. You have the SC for PTSD and there is good support on the otherside when you are out.

Ba

 

[Spock]

Welcome Marine. I was in gorup therapy at WRNMMC-Bethesda with plenty of Marines from Quantico. I went through the same paranoia you haave my final duty in DC and most of it was justified. If they weren't in combat, they do NOT have clue what you are dealing with no matter how supportive they act or what they say unless they are openly generous providing you flexibility to seek treatment and get healthy.

Start building your med records they way you want, you need them to be to reflect your combat injuries while you are still on AD! Stop under estimating your pain levels when you report to med exams. Report everything you have. Hopefully you started seeing specialists and think about requesting an out patient program to learn coping skills. Build up a trusted medical team to support you and ensure your chain of command is clear about your combat anxiety.

Peace!

 

[Jimmy1]

Welcome to the forum mate