Vow To Live & Not Just Survive

[cdinwv]

I wrote this poem many years ago. For me, I wanted to create my own personal inspiration dediated to myself to always pick me up when I am low and give me personal focus. I do not want to dedicate my entire life to survival but to living and enjoying life. This gave me focus and hope of not only where I had been but where I am going. I am hoping it brings focus and hope to others too.

"I Hope To Be"
Cynthia M. Cox

I am strong, I am brave;
I have felt no fear.

I have tasted determination's sweetness.
I have kissed the power of anger with no temptation;
I have looked terror in the eyes with no remorse.
I have stood on a foundation of no substance.

Yet time is the desire that my hands cannot grasp.
Reality is but a dream that I cannot understand.

The simplicity of life's explanation is more foreign to me,
Than the freedom I have to experience it.

The gift of happiness is a treasure,
I hope only to give.

When does or will my package of completeness arrive?
Will I ever be freed to me?
Or will I always succumb to a presence of my own breath for another?

When, If, Where and Why?
One day, one time, a moment in space.
I will find me, I will heal me,
I will secure these wounds within.
I will never emerge as the broken soul that I am,
But will fly and soar.
As the Eagle I hope to always be.

 

[Lionheart]

Great Poem. :)

The thread tittle caught my attention and I must say that I admire your determination to heal. From what I understand there is being a victim, being a survivor, healing (of heart, mind and soul), and then growth, which I suppose refers to self-actualization.

...I dunno, but I do know that there is more to life than being a victim/survivor...we have the right and the ablity to heal ourselves and our lives...even if it takes a little help from others.

peace,
LH

 

[cdinwv]

Thank you Lionheart777. I embrace helping others and have a harder time to allow others to help me because it is hard to decipher the good from the bad and usually it is thru difficult cirumstances that a person learns another's true colors. I never tried support groups specifically targeted at specific needs. But I am finding help for myself in giving more focus for my need to heal and recover and helping others.

There is more than us being victims/survivors and building our own growth of identity and validation that we are people too is the hardest for me to overcome but I will and I hope we all do and can.