Waiting, Waiting, Waiting

[Sazza]

Well here goes again I have been told to hang in there and wait for a new antidepressant to get into my system. I'm tired of waiting, I'm in a place of inner turmoil at the moment fighting the thoughts it causing me so much distress. I feel like no one is taking me serious, I am distraught at the thought of trying to get through the weekend with the way I feel let alone waiting a week or 2 for new medication to try and kick in.

I feel vulnerable and out of control at times. I am More in control today but tired of going In Circles. It really hard be honest about how feeling when I try I wonder why I bother, think even my Gp is fed up me now.

 

[Penguin]

Sazza,

Hi there, I just happened to see your post on the main page. Hang in there!! Think how far you've come! In contrast, two weeks is a tiny blink in time. It's one of the beauties of this world that things do not stay constant. Like you say... "keep calm and carry on." I love the phrase by the way. This too shall pass. (((((Sazza)))))

 

[The Albatross]

I hear the distress in your post Saza... yeah it's hard to be told to wait. Just try to remember it's a process... trying to get you managed. I hope that the new med helps you sooner than you expect.

 

[shell]

Yes, it does seem forever, but in the scheme of things it will pass quickly. I've just got to 4 weeks today, and I now will have to increase the dose but I coped by keeping busy to try and stop focusing on how I felt. In comparison to how I felt 4 weeks ago, I can see an improvement, it just takes time. It's hard to stay active when I'm feeling crap, but I always notice an improvement after I get out and exercise, it really is true that it does improve your mood. It doesn't matter how negative I'm feeling, listening to music and walking always improves my mood.

 

[Sazza]

Thanks for the replies, I was managing to exercise but the last couple days shell I havent been able to manage. I have decided after only one dose of the new tablet I'm going go back my old Citalopram. I feel shocking my head is killing I don't want go through side effects all over again when the Citalopram I think was doing some good.

If the suicidal ideas continue as they have been I will return back to doctors next week and let them know about Meds and see about gaining some crisis support again.