Welcome to the community!
So I am still waiting for it written on paper but my therapist thinks it's ptsd. I think its a mix of ptsd and ocd. All started when i got molested and abused emotionally blackmailed and manipulated. It goes way mkre far back but i have checking and testing compulsions and very bad disturbing images and scenarios about the trauma i got but also more different topics that i think aren't related to the main reason im feeling this way . Tried tk end it a couple times. Well is this ptsd?
No one here can answer that.
Could it be? Sure, with a history of sexual abuse. It could also be a whole lotta other things… and that’s before a comorbid Dx of OCD. (That’s not an uncommon pairing, PTSD+OCD, quite a few members on site have that particular challenge, either served straight up or with various twists & mixers, like eating disorders, parasomnias, etc..). But the way that pre-existing diagnoses react with trauma?!? (Read: Complicated). Makes misdiagnosis
incredibly common, and then worse, “treatment resistent” being tagged on (I really wish “they” would red flag that particular label to look for misdiagnosis >.<).
Point being? Don’t be in a rush. Getting the RIGHT diagnosis, will save years/decades of square peg ≠ round hole.
I know. “Don’t be in a rush” when something needs to have stopped yesterday? Is almost an impossible ask.
It’s so easy to get fixed on what/why, though, that one ends up losing sight of the reason what/why is important in the first place… to find out HOW to best treat it (and what to avoid). Getting the Dx right, the first time? Even though it’s a slower process than jumping into abcxyz? Is wicked faster than wasting years on the wrong therapies, meds, protocols, ad nauseam.
Again, welcome!