Walking

[Mim28]

I took a walk tonight. It's only the 2nd time in 3 months. I haven't had the strength. But I went. It was dark and I chose to go in the dark on purpose. It's quiet. I don't need to worry about running into my neighbors and having to answer questions about where I've been. I could think if I wanted to, although I don't think about much these days. I cried. And no one saw me. I touched trees because they are a sign of life. Something that feels missing from my core. I said a prayer at each stop to find my peace.. to find my way back home to me.

 

[Deleted member 28740]

Lovely. And finding my way back to being able to walk (physical). Appreciate your sharing.

 

[Gs172003]

I honest to God feel that being in nature is so good for us it's not funny. I wish more of us could do it

 

[Freedomfighter]

I took a walk tonight. It's only the 2nd time in 3 months. I haven't had the strength. But I went. It...

I used to do that all the time, absolutely loved going on walks at night but stalkers have taken that away from me, enjoy this as much as you can.

 

[expectingbetter]

Yes, walking by night has so many advantages, I also prefer exclusively having my walks when is dark, and in my case when is cold, such a few people on streets then and such quiet as you said.
I am so glad you maned to perform that walk! I hope there will be the next one very soon!

 

[Mim28]

It's nice out today so I went for a walk in the woods behind my house. I didn't go very far. Just spend more time slowly looking at things. I found a walking stick which helped because I feel a bit unstable and weak. It's probably the lack of exercise. It was sunny and it felt good on my face. I followed the deer tracks to an open clearing where I imagine they graze. No sign of them today. The squirrels were running around doing their preparations. I stopped and leaned against a tree and felt the sun on my face and the strength and life of the tree on my back. I willed that life force into me. To help bring me back. I stopped at what was left of a broken tree. It looks dead but it's still standing. Like me. I touched it and said a prayer of thanks for all the shelter it has given the animals over the years.

 

[expectingbetter]

Wonderfully written @Mim28
We are all still standing despite all odds, and we are all survivors. I am proud of all of us here everyday and thankful we are here for each other.
It is so nice you have spent some more time outside in the real nature. I am amazed with your description of the environment and I find it to be lovely, especially the part with squirrels, so calming and carefree.
When I walk I can't reach the nature at the place where I live so I walk through very noisy streets, sometimes it is irritating, but most of the times I accept it just the way it is as I really love my city.

 

[Mim28]

Walk #3. It's dark again, but warm for a northeastern November evening. I needed to touch the trees again. I took a different route today. Partly because I saw neighbors on my normal route and I didn't feel like interacting. I just wanted to be present with my walk tonight. I've been very tired since starting the new medication and I didn't think I would get very far. There weren't as may trees to touch but I stopped a couple times and admired the differences in all of them. Noticed those that were imperfect, like me. But thanked them again for being part of the earth and providing shelter for us and the animals. I picked a drying orange leaf. Ready to leave the tree and be blown away. Like me. I brought it home with me. it provided me comfort on my walk.
There wasn't as much to see tonight and honestly not much to think about. A few steps, a few tears, a few cool breezes.
Today I noticed more of what was going on in the neighborhood. People moving around in their homes; coming and going. when you feel bad, you imagine all in their houses are happy and healthy, but I know that is not true. I said a prayer for anyone in those homes who might be feeling like me. Then I said a prayer for myself.
I made it home. I moved my muscles and took in oxygen, and raised my heart rate a bit. All good for the body, my logical mind says. And hopefully good for the mind and soul.

 

[NaeNae75]

Your writing is almost poetic. I'm glad you're out walking and being with nature....it's so healing!

 

[Mim28]

Your writing is almost poetic.

Thank you Nae my friend. It's just how I've been feeling lately. Maybe it's a small start. But it's something. I had a nice long talk with my boss I'll catch you up later.