Ms Spock, I have So much hope for you in this shaky time and so much admiration for your courage. I thank you for posting and for the others who have responded to your posts. I've been toying with the idea myself.
It's spring season where I am, and I find lavender and geranium help me. I keep some sprigs in my pockets and pull them out when I feel I'm going completely half-cocked in all directions simultaneously. (Of course, that's when I'm still on my meds as I am and have been for 12 years now -- I'm not at the point of true courage that you've already committed to so full-mindedly.)
Blessings, flowers and sun-hugs to you.