What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Footie freak]

Britt.f7....... I know that feeling too

 

[Abstract]

the history of it and my reoccurring total blindness (as in without adequate knowledge), fears and my ignorance.

Goingonnhope,
I am soo sorry I didn't answer before. I was in a place where the words where not coming and connection to others hard.

Your virtual hugs are accepted and I am glad my words are of some comfort to you. I am extremely lucky and grateful as a couple of years ago an immunologist decided that my anaphylaxis is from a crossover allergy. That means it is much less dangerous than originally thought. I have been where you are though in the past and still have a problem managing where I am with stuff at any time.

I have started wondering if my blindness and inaction is some sort of freeze related response as I do this when in danger in other situations too. I don't think it is easy in that place either as our bodies are in a state and we are not feeling and thinking in the usual ways. Please don't be hard on or judge yourself.

It is perfectly fine and good to mention problems here but I understand the shame and fear and self judgement that so often comes afterwards. Allergies are a pain. I was a little hesitant to mention it because of my paranoia about anonymity but what you describe above is one of my most persistent symptoms and can be quite extreme where I cannot see. For me it is allergic and falls under the same lot of symptoms as the type of swellings that cause anaphylaxis even though it is benign. Causes are usually related to air born allergens but can be food related. Mouth swelling is more usual with food. I am not sure if you are on daily allergy medication or not but if not then taking an antihistamine or anti leukotriene treatment and you can get special eyedrops for it. Steroids may be needed sometimes.

Have your dr's seen what this looks like? I have found that they often don't understand until they see it and also that it is only allergists and immunologists that really seem to get these things.

I too often become generally quite sick when my immune system is kicking off. In that way I find immunologists better than allergists as they seem to be better at looking at the big picture. We also tend to feel extra irritable and awful when allergies are up. I find anxiety sets of my immune system and immune reactions increase my anxiety. Its a happy little cycle! :p

Hugs to you.

 

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I am living at my daughters now. I am feeling pretty good. I still have a long way to go as far as moving all of my stuff over here. But I am feeling so much better.

 

[Britt.f7]

Content for now. Husband is home and I managed to get a little house work done.

 

[DMerish]

I felt peaceful and productive today. I cleaned/tidied up real good and donated some stuff to charity. I think I prefer things uncluttered.

 

[zaniara]

As if my heart is being ripped out of my body. Despair. Bad, bad, bad impulses. Shame. Tired. Lonely. Useless.

 

[CraftyCath]

I feel much better than I have lately. The headaches are gone but I'm still very tired.

I feel a bit guilty because I've done very little all day. I shouldn't be so hard on myself as I have post viral faatigue and need time to recover fully.

 

[ninja]

Hoping the other discussion leader wasn't lying when she said I didn't "drop the ball" today. I sure feel like I did. Oopsie. :peeking::wideeyed:

 

[TwoDee2ThreeDee]

Angry - Trying to turn it into humor though. It may be one of my, "oh no she didn't just go there, did she", nights.

 

[senji]

Lonely, afraid and little sad.

I can't find a job, so I don't have people around me.

I am afraid my life will end before I will have my first relationship

Sad because I'm alone with no job, with no friends, and the question that I have, if I worth something?
If there is a chance for me to be a friend of someone, to be boyfriend of somegirl, to be someone that people will remember, care and miss. .

 

[Miss_Understood]

Inquisitive, tenacious, and anxious. A little irritated at my current sleeping problems.

 

[franciemarnie]

I am beat. Absolutely exhausted. So much somatic release. It wakes me when I'm sleeping and takes a while for the feeling to come out and the freezing feeling to go and the warmth to come back. My eyes hurt. Feel battered. Twisted and turned. So damn tired.