What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[zbztster]

My overall feeling is that I am lucky to be blessed with the family I have and work I love and just happy. I feel like in the grand scheme of things my issues are insignificant and not that big of a deal.

Also frustrated because I feel myself losing control and I want to throw memories in a room close the door and lock it.

I am embarrassed about crying in public and sorry for the man that set off my flashback because he blamed himself.

I'm in pain and tired but also feel like I've drank ten coffee's.

On and off, I feel like im 4years old, pure evil and like im scared, i feel like i need to beg forgiveness and say sorry for but my words dont come out. I feel like I can't breathe....I feel anger

Determined is also a strong feeling. If it kills me I'm going to put this behind me and it won't get in the way of my life I wont let him have repeated satisfaction of emotionally tearing me apart.

I get that feeling of being pure evil and it scares the hell out of me. That really resonates with me. But determined resonates even louder. We will break through these strongholds and breathe fresh air.

 

[Spiderallis]

I'm terrified, stressed out, overwhelmed and depressed. Got bad news from the MD today... lots of it. Stressed out. Cutting down on the cigarettes and junk food that I used to turn to when stressed to improve a few health things... even more stressed by that. Stress makes some of medical stuff worse. I'm just running around in a circle here, spiraling down and I keep going because I don't know what else to do. Ahh well. I'll visit the department of human services about some paperwork tomorrow as they don't seem to return phone calls. I may end up on the floor in their lobby in the fetal position and bawling my eyes out if they can't help me to get the form I need.

 

[Tinyflame]

((((Spiderallis)))), I'm sorry. Know it's of no use, but if I could I really would switch spots with you. :( I hope that there is someone to help you.

Was thinking, I guess even an absence of simple manners is what gets me, to know that there is that little respect, let alone even 'care'. I am so tired of asking for help, and not even getting a response. How stupid to persevere, or think I was on the right track. 'Hope'- oye- not for me. I am so stupid.

Oh well, I also figure, enough whining. I feel pretty numb, easy to not care in another way. I mean, what's the point, I was mistaken, well, not the first mistake and dead-end I've come up against with ptsd in 30 years.

 

[Chantal]

(((((Junebug)))))

Sadly yes I have to see him. I never though someone who was locked up could even ask for shared custody. Well i was wrong, he did file for shared custody of the kids. My lawyer says he'll never get it but i don't know what to believe anymore... I lost trust in everyone including myself... I've never felt this low before...

I know exactly how you feel! I make up excuses for everyone else's behavior all the time. Like "His parents were never around that why he's acting like that" or " He doesn't have a better example of a good relationship that why ours isn't working" so lame! I even convinced my parents he couldn't help being so ignorant.

We shouldn't make up excuses to make our selves feel better about what other people think or do!

And I 100% agree with you, I wish the world had more honest people. Don't keep going around your point hoping I magically start reading between the lines.

 

[Chantal]

Care?? There is no care in this world other then in the hearts of the people who actually need someone who's caring...

I care more about other's then I do myself! I help everyone, knowing that when i'm in need they won't be there. Not even to just hold my hand. But hey! Who cares?? It always seems like I'm the only one who does.

 

[Tinyflame]

Care?? There is no care in this world other then in the hearts of the people who actually need someone who's caring...

That's actually very profound Chantal.

I truly hope you find it, because it sounds like you more than deserve it. ((((Big Hugs)))), let us know how it goes, I think your lawyer is absolutely right but I understand your terror-feeling.

 

[Sammy]

I had a good day. I got my new bed :tup: and had my dishwasher finally fixed. I can finally use it! I am looking forward to crawling into a new bed and hope I have a good night of sleep.

I have a tons of little "projects" around the house that I am actually excited about. Things to look forward to. Feeling anxious this evening but it was a busy day. :sleep:

 

[Charmedone]

i feel sad, alone, confused, iritated, on edge, paranoid, pain and depressed....

Sad because i have to come to work and leave my kids at daycare.

I hope your feeling better, do your children like daycare? I am sure the people at day care will take really good care of them. If you feel like its not a good setting for them, why not try to get a nanny ? You could receive text updates about what your children are doing so you wouldn't miss them as much. *hugs* take care x

 

[p-no]

Feeling good and hopeful (but there's only a "wishful" mood) :)

 

[Charmedone]

I'm feeling pleased that I made it to work today even though I was having anxiety about coming....now I'm here I'm feeling secure, happy even. This is my safe place. I'm on my brake right now. :).

I hope everyone else is having a good day x

 

[Srain]

(((((((((((Hugs to all)))))))))))))

I'm feeling rather stuck in my head. I didn't do a whole lot yesterday outside of my walk and normal chores plus dealing with afternoon Migraine but it didn't linger past getting up this morning and setting out for my walk - I'm so grateful!

I feel like getting out and to get a few things done but not really interacting. I'm bugged about my body which means something else is going on and I'm not quite sure what yet.

 

[KP the nut]

I feel proud of how I managed the whole tooth extraction thing.

Today I feel more upbeat and confident that I am recovering. I feel proud that I am being much kinder to myself and that I take time to relax and chill daily.

:hug::hug::hug: