What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Let It Be]

On Sunday, I felt no anxiety, what a difference!

Yesterday, a little bit!

Last night, it came back to me, after something happened by seeing my neighbor lady and husband. It's like there is more stuff there to deal with, from her and others that I haven't dealt with.

Wish I could go walking, but since I can't, maybe I'm just supposed to trust this process, and I will!

 

[Deleted member 12723]

((((((KP))))))) (((((((((Deb))))))))))) (((((((((((((Lion))))))))))))))))

I am feeling different today. Now that I know what my anxiety is all about I have to develop some new coping skills to manage it. I will continue to push forward. I will have to journal alot about this new turn of events. I cannot wait to start therapy to work on it. I hope to get stronger anxiety meds. I feel ok but uncertain.

 

[Sammy]

Hugs to all who need them!!

I am ok today. I actually got a few things done! Ran some errands, paid bills :eek:, played frisbee with the dog. Going to finish mowing the yard in a bit. Feeling very tired but I want to get the yard done today so I don't have to think about it for a while.

 

[zbztster]

Disconnected
Happy to be alive
Lonely
Itchy
Confused, not connecting the dots very well

 

[Spiderallis]

I have a bad case of 'Eh' today. Still dealing with aches and ouches. Frustrated that I've left messages for the same person every day for a week who was initially supposed to call me and didn't. One more day until I pack a picnic and camp out in their office... I'm not leaving until I get my concerns addressed or one of those nice jackets with the extra-long sleeves.

 

[Tinyflame]

Tired of trying to effect positive changes as per my ptsd. Aware that I can change many other things, maybe not where I live, but (technically) my attitude towards my relative and recognition of her persepective towards me (understandable, and the basis of why); my smoking, my hobbies, my diet, my friends, my church, my responses, and maybe even my sleep patterns. Where I will be working, my co-workers, my supervisor, my hours and my clients will all be changing shortly, even my attitude towards that I can choose. But one thing I won't be bothering with, is swimming against the tide anymore as per help or ptsd. It's like banging myself on the head with a hammer to get rid of a headache, past pointless. :(

 

[Charmedone]

My overall feeling is that I am lucky to be blessed with the family I have and work I love and just happy. I feel like in the grand scheme of things my issues are insignificant and not that big of a deal.

Also frustrated because I feel myself losing control and I want to throw memories in a room close the door and lock it.

I am embarrassed about crying in public and sorry for the man that set off my flashback because he blamed himself.

I'm in pain and tired but also feel like I've drank ten coffee's.

On and off, I feel like im 4years old, pure evil and like im scared, i feel like i need to beg forgiveness and say sorry for but my words dont come out. I feel like I can't breathe....I feel anger

Determined is also a strong feeling. If it kills me I'm going to put this behind me and it won't get in the way of my life I wont let him have repeated satisfaction of emotionally tearing me apart.

 

[Tinyflame]

I found the words for how I feel, I remember now exactly why I abhor dependence or interdependence: if you can't get it done yourself, you're at the mercy of others, the begging or asking or paying for help that doesn't come, anyway; it is often easier to learn to do it yourself or skip it entirely, because they rarely come through. 1/1000. More often than not they don't come through. Even contractors are aggravating.

No wonder I learned to be independent so early. No wonder I abhor the alternative, it's no alternative at all, no matter what anyone says.

I knew/ know better than that, my whole life I learned that.

 

[Let It Be]

Have not been feeling anxious today, and it surprises me to say the least. I began to question why seeing my neighbor lady last night bothered me so much. Yes, her actions bothered me, but I lived through it. That's the key, I lived through it.

Years ago when I depended upon her when I was having surgery for the first time, I was in so much fear, that I probably didn't think that I would live through the surgery, and when she let me down, as others have, ie. family of origin, husband, every day was about surviving.

I'm feeling like I have more of an awareness about good ole fear and how it has impacted my life in so many situations.

 

[anthony]

Sick... dieting is painful, and this is ripping the weight off, though is making me feel like crap. :facepalm:

 

[Charmedone]

Numb, ghost like-as if looking in at myself :(

 

[p-no]

Like crap. :bag: