What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Spiderallis]

Bit of panicky fear and then a ton of awfulness and guilt over it. I think a nice young man is trying to ask me on a date. I'm trying to decrease the anxiety medication and this isn't how I want to feel about the thought of meeting someone I've enjoyed chatting with.

 

[Glo809]

Greetings

I feel uncomfortably uncertain....

There have been many changes in such a short period of time.

I'm used to that, when it does not involve ME!!!

From my initial crisis of the outting of my ptsd into the open and needing attention, I had the mindset of no meds......

Well, I'm rethinking this position.... as my self education along with therapy continues, more and more crap is coming up to deal with and even now while posting this I'm starting to get unnerved...

This is not the ME I know, I used to be a man who could just deal with it!

The Mrs has her own thick skin and is not sympathetic.

So, alone, scared, abused, used, taken advantage of, pissed on, and so much more...

Sorry to unload, even though this is why the collective WE are here for ......

So that's how I feel
G

 

[VioletButterfly]

@Glo809 - Sending vibes of support your way. I think many of us have hit that point in the road where we don't really understand who we are anymore, and find it horribly jolting, isolating, and desolate. Been there a few times, myself, and am working through a period of gently turning the wheel inside of myself in another direction in having to adapt and try growth instead of self-destruction. I hope it gets better for you. As you noted, though, WE are here for you so please vent away. VB

 

[VioletButterfly]

@Anrish & @Junebug - Hoping you are having a better day today. VB

 

[VioletButterfly]

Been on an emotional pendulum today.

Earlier, I felt lost, fractured, consternated, angry, reactionary, lost, afraid, unsure, and "insert negative self thought here..."

Now, I feel, mostly, kind of flat, but hopeful and willing to try again - maybe a different path or maybe one I've been part of the way down once or twice before, but this time it will be with intention? Not sure yet. At least I've gotten out of the loop-to-loop feed of my emotional mind and have one foot back in what I consider the white noise sanity of my intellect, while hugging my faith like a well worn Teddy bear. VB

 

[aut555]

Feeling like l locked the demons up and threw away the key. Decided not to give power to that mindset. Hope this doesn't fall back into denial but l notice l concentrate more on a happy place vs the unknown dark space of unsolicited feelings that tumble out sometimes with no provocation. So far is working pretty good. Was trigger by invite which brought horrible feelings of my ex abusing me, but moved on.

 

[Glo809]

@Glo809 - Sending vibes of support your way. I think many of us have hit...

Thanks,
I appreciat this more than you know.

G

 

[VioletButterfly]

Exhausted and a bit grumpy - can't sleep to save my life.
Bored to death and overwhelmed at the same time by this job - I can't stand accounting and finance!
Weary of the journey, but still looking for a better way and a better life.
Angry that life has been and is continuing to be such a struggle.
Grateful.

 

[Anrish]

@VioletButterfly Thank you! :hug:

I'm feeling neutral. :confused:

 

[aut555]

Exhausted and a bit grumpy - can't sleep to save my life.
Bored to death and overwhelmed at the...

It's so difficult to be in a job you hate. It's torture, l so have experienced that. Maybe try some form of exercise to get you a little bit removed from the obessive feelings of hating the job. Then maybe work towards improving and changing your situation. Just one small baby step will help you open that door to change.

 

[Glo809]

Sleep..
VB I could easily do that 18 hours a day, therapist said it is a stage of denial, problem is the Mrs says sometime I yell in my sleep and wake her up, if that happens she is up for good cuz her mind gets going.

G

 

[Glo809]

Exhausted and a bit grumpy - can't sleep to save my life.

Sleep..
VB I could easily do that 18 hours a day, therapist said it is a stage of denial, problem is the Mrs says sometime I yell in my sleep and wake her up, if that happens she is up for good cuz her mind gets going.

G