Hesitant......to offer my skills for an ongoing scene/venue that could benefit both of us in many ways for fear of my body not allowing me to follow through consistently, since some of my worst pains flare up at the damnedest random times...making it certain I'll eventually let them down, too, right alongside myself and all the others I've tried to commit to....dammit, dammit, dammit!!! C'mon brain....let's sort through these endless "what-ifness" thoughts and get over this particular huge hump of uncertainty. I'll make us a pot of tea then we can get started.