What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Aine]

Right now, I miss my fiance.
My ex-fiance.
I ran away from him because I was scared I'd be an awful wife, that I wasn't good enough for him. That was a bad time and it was hard, but sometimes thinking of the good times is harder. Like when he would look at me like I was the most precious thing in the whole world and no matter how bad or numb I felt, he could always make me laugh and feel alive.
I wish I could tell him how much I miss him and how lonely I feel without him and how he was the only person I ever felt I had a connection to, the only person I've ever truly loved.

 

[KP the nut]

Bless you friends. I can feel your support. I am doing this, no choice.

Grateful for friendship

 

[Marie E.]

Feeling blue and strange.

This morning all the kids lined up outside to catch the bus, came back to their apartments. Rumor is that the bus crashed. I tried to call the school on three diff lines, left msg for attendance.

Mind I tell you that it is freezing arse weather out there??

 

[Nighthawk]

Like screaming and hitting and hiding.

NH

 

[Marie E.]

Like screaming and hitting and hiding.

NH

Than I will Scream with you!!!!!!

 

[Marie E.]

You know that feeling where you want to laugh and don't know why, cause you are feeling so crazy?

Than you start to wonder, am I? No, I am just stressed, but that is how I'm feeling. Life can seem so unbelievable!!

 

[deer_in_headlights]

Exhausted:
Absolutely nose in the ground, flattened, road-kill exhausted...

 

[KP the nut]

Exhausted:
Absolutely nose in the ground, flattened, road-kill exhausted...

Linking arms with you. I wish I was there to comfort you

(((HUGE HUGS)))

 

[deer_in_headlights]

Linking arms with you. I wish I was there to comfort you

(((HUGE HUGS)))

Linking arms, Sweetheart!!!
You are comforting me, even thoughts of you comfort me, (((((((((Kath))))))))))).
You are in my heart and prayers... I worry about you...
So much love,
Deer

 

[momwithptsd]

Right now, I miss my fiance.
My ex-fiance.
I ran away from him because I was scared I'd be an awful wife, that I wasn't good enough for him. That was a bad time and it was hard, but sometimes thinking of the good times is harder. Like when he would look at me like I was the most precious thing in the whole world and no matter how bad or numb I felt, he could always make me laugh and feel alive.
I wish I could tell him how much I miss him and how lonely I feel without him and how he was the only person I ever felt I had a connection to, the only person I've ever truly loved.

I know how you feel, before my husband became my husband, I left him for 9 months because I thought how he treated me was fake, because nobody had ever treated me so wonderful or told me how wonderful I was, so I took it that he was trying to hard, so he must have been hiding something, so I broke things off with him.

I went back to one of my abusers (my son's biological dad), because that's what felt normal to me. Of course the abuse started all over again, and I with help of my psychiatrist, felt worthy enough to leave, 7 months later, and wanted better for my son. So I left my abuser and lived with my parents (my mom is my other abuser) until I could afford my own place.

My husband came back into my life as a friend (I reached out to him) and a relationship grew out of it. Some how I have been able to allow this healthy relationship for 3 years now, and my son calls him dad since his biological dad is not involved anymore. He is very patient with me and very understanding, and that helps out a lot.

I hope you don't mind me sharing, it reminded me of my situation.

(((HUGS)))
Mom With PTSD

 

[momwithptsd]

I was going to post last night, however, the baby woke up and I ended up falling asleep before being able to post anything.

Last night I was feeling overwhelmed, anxious, stressed, angry, sad, suffocated/closed in

This morning I woke up to both of my babies snuggling me and now I feel blessed as I'm sitting here watching them both sleep so peacefully and innocently. I still am feeling a little bit overwhelmed and stressed, but not as much as yesterday and last night.

 

[Nighthawk]

Ready to explode.

Thankful for the forum

NH