What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Mockingbird13]

Too much in my mind - but feeling a little more inner strength today. Knowing what I need to to, but afraid to take that step.

...and then he emails me and Im back to being jello...ugh

 

[The Albatross]

Cautiously elated... did a search on another supplement, and depending on the expiration date can save 20 bucks each. They email me tomorrow.
(I'm smiling!)

 

[Ron]

I know you will get better Iam! Just believe in yourself and work hard and never give up!

 

[Iam]

Thanks Ron and Junebug. Thing is......I really am so much better than even 6 months ago. I have good days now, I can feel joy and cry in "normal" grief or sadness. So much better than being numb, but the sadness never really goes away, even when I am happy. Does that make sense? To be happy and sad at the same time?

 

[alixipain]

It makes sence for in a few words you discribed me completely happy yet sad.

pissed at world.
had a gun I'ld be killing people.
pissed at myself.
discouraged
numb
overly mad
exhausted

 

[Abrasky]

Like I am probably about as good as I am going to get and that makes me

I think you get days like that Iam where you don't think you will get better or you get pulled backwards. I wish it was a game like trouble where you could go forwards and not backwards rather than a game of monopoly where I have to keep going back to go. It would make me feel better to know that those feelings pass and you will soon have a better one

And trying to get better is cool because it means there is always something positive to do.

 

[Brontie]

I have a psych-doc’s appointment coming up and I feel like crap. I often think about cancelling it but what if that turned out to be a mistake? I have family around me (not living with me) who see me as doing fine but what if I stop seeing her and things change for the worst? I’m usually good at reading the ‘signs’ but I can’t ‘see’ if it’s time to knock this on the head. What would the ‘signs’ be, what would they look like, feel like, if it’s time to finally stand on your own two feet?

 

[The Albatross]

(((Brontie))) I have come to realize that if I get knocked in the head (and didn't see it coming) that I will get back up again, dust myself off, make any apoligies necessary to restore some peace and carry on.

Okay. I'm feeling okay if not calm. That will work. It gives me a starting point I can build on.

 

[Brontie]

Knocking it on the head is an expression for ending something. Lol!

 

[The Albatross]

Ah, I get you. Somehow my mind linked the "knocking it in the head" with the trepidation you were voicing about maybe not seeing anything coming. But, hey, that's why I'm here???

 

[KP the nut]

What am I feeling today, ummmm, damned if I know

 

[The Albatross]

You made me smile KP because when I usually hit this thread, that's my first thought. Sometimes it takes me three hours to connect to some emotion words.