What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[amethist]

Stressed to the absolute limit. Even our cat is constantly demanding attention.

How much more do they all want from me. :tdown:

 

[The Albatross]

Well I tried numbing out and it got me full blown compulsive alcoholism and isolating in my home for a year and a half. I was puking up bile, I was chronically malnourished and chronically dehdrated. I had stopped eating and caring for myself and most likely would have died, as no one interviened. I even detoxed myself the first time I got sober, so I got to "feel the feelings" and do like a Nike commercial and "just do it".

 

[isabellind]

I'll start. ................

I feel a greatly alarmed.
I feel very angry.
I feel cautious.
I feel confused.
I feel depressed.

I feel disgusted with the influences of the world. Specifically tv and its content, as well as, gen. socially acceptable, societal hidden teachings.

I feel distanced from contact and/or intimacy with family, friends, people in general (all of humanity). Intimacy to me does not mean sex.

I feel embarrassment, for having been so vulnerable in my past and for so long, and for now feeling so wounded and confused. I feel humiliated.

I feel horrifed as I continue to be honest with myself about my trauma(s).

I guess I identified some of my feeling tonight, well at least at a glance and as far down as the H's on this list:

[DLMURL]http://www.ptsdforum.org/thread700.html[/DLMURL]

I finally found a Mindfulness class/group for Trauma survivors and i found one of their exercises to be helpful on the topic presented here: They have to separate your thoughts from feelings from bodily sensations and observe each without judgement. It helps you to untangle the big overwhelming ball of chaos.

I feel restless as i feel unmotivated yet GUILTY for things i THINK i should be getting done/doing.
I feel impatient and frustrated as i want to be able to feel positive feelings and happiness and peace now but the road feels so long.
I THINK i'm thankful that i found healmyptsd.com as i often feel lost on my healing journey and it and the founder help me feel less confused and alone in this but its hard for me to feel gratitude very often even if i can think it.
I feel scared about my future ...work and finances and finding a life partner / love
I feel lonely and disconnected from the world/people ... a ghost of myself ...
I feel confused and lost.
I feel ashamed about my finances/credit and that i haven't been strong enough to overcome PTSD
I feel weak and tired and unmotivated
I feel a much calmer heartbeat and less constricted chest (less fight or flight anxiety) thanks to the hypnotherapy i've done with healmyptsd but that makes me more aware of depressed feelings as the anxiety isn't masking it.

 

[Abrasky]

I'm not really much today, Just happy because I have been able to cut the PTSD ropes that was keeping me from being an orphan again. I am so much more mentally stable as an ophan WOOHOO.
I was going to say I'm an ophan, but then I didn't want anyone to think I had finished the olds off. :)

 

[Srain]

like a pitbull that needs to bite

 

[KP the nut]

V tired after a lousy night sleep. Neck and shoulder very painful.
But suprisingly calm.

 

[The Albatross]

Taking a cue from isabellind (trying it on for size and seeing if I can bend myself a bit this morning before I freak myself out with th trauma diary):

I feel rested.
I feel mentally alert.
I feel mild anxiousness.
I feel concerned and indecisive about the upcoming doctor appointment and frustrated that I have a new "chronic" progression with no diagnosis other than allergies.
I feel confused because I don't know if I should press for testing or just keep going the way I am.
I feel angry that my agency is continuing to bother me when I am sick and are upsetting me and my husband with calls when I've provided them with receipts, the diagnosis, and the course of treatment.
I think that they are treating me like I'm a loafer when I've taken their toughest clients for almost 3 years.
I think that I am a track proven responsible employee and I feel sad and irritated because this health issue is out of my control.
I feel scared that this is a progression of my illness and that it will affect our financial security and my ability to earn money.
I think that I am balanced enouth to deal with my traumas in therapy.
I think that I can strengthen my marriage and learn better communication with my spouse.
I feel inadequate because of my illness, depression and PTSD.

I feel my hearts heaviness and want to cry but I still can't. (How'd I do?)

 

[Deleted member 6617]

EXCITED about my upcoming trip!
VERY HAPPY from meeting my brother for the first time.
Feeling on an upswing...whew finally!!!!

 

[goingonhope]

Worked myself sick today; Not that I accomplished a whole lot, but somethings. I feel dizzy and like vomiting. The workload is so so so discouraging and exhausting. Pain is returning to my neck and shoulders, and this is what makes me feel nauseus today, besides the frustration and fear and anxiety of not being able to catch up on certain responsibilities.

Just read something that was so sad and didn't have the heart to respond. What I feel like doing is vomiting then crying, but only one of which I could make happen and I've recovered from that. And, crying well, .....feeling negative about that and what would be the use. I couldn't if I tried anyhow.

Sad, gloomy, depressed and physically weak already today, and so soon. Sometimes I get to thinking that I'm not suppose to feel this way any longer, and wtf is wrong with me; So I guess I feel ashamed today for feeling ill.

 

[Deleted member 6617]

Sending you Hugs Hope (((((Goingonhope)))))

 

[goingonhope]

Thanks PH for your Hugs, very much welcomed! Sending more Hugs back your way. Also, that is Awesome news about you meeting your brother for the very first time.

Hope

 

[amethist]

Like I have just wasted 6 months of my life. As hubby has now decided all I have done this last 6 months for him is no good, and he is now going to do everything his way.

Which means sitting around doing nothing but listen to the radio and eating very little.

Fine let him get on with it.