What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Bubba]

(((((HUGS))))) to everyone that needs them!!

I am anxious, dizzy, disoriented, angry, hurt, disappointed, tired, rejected...

Tried to take the high road with my husband last night. Told him to move on - I didn't bring up him being on dating sites and pursuing other women. I figured I would tell him I don't know how long my recovery would take. I didn't tell him anything that wasn't untrue - I just left out the part of the dating sites. I ended up getting slammed. He blames me for everything. Calls me cold and unfeeling. The attacks went on and on and on (all thru text). I'm going to wait a couple of days and then let him know that I know. And that it's a deal breaker for me. Whether we actually divorce or not - he needs to move on - it won't be with me.

 

[Lapislazuli]

I feel oddly calm and peaceful this morning. I was feeling weak and powerless before bed. Sleeping on the feeling helped a lot (lots and lots of sleep, while snuggling a body pillow).

I did a lot of cleaning yesterday so I feel like I can bask in my apartment peacefully, without any dust bothering my nose. I am going to brew some tea, take my zoloft and b12 vitamins, then work with my meditation stones.

 

[Red Feather]

What happened yesterday wasn't your fault. The fact that you are here on this forum shows strength. xoxo

Thank you dear Wordgirl. Hugs back.

 

[Wordgirl]

alone, scared, helpless, childlike, broken and unloved

Here's a ((((((((((((hug)))))))))))))) for you, too.

 

[^^FlyingSolo^^]

Here's a group hug for all of us.


I'm terrified. I have so many mixed feeling swirling around inside, I don't know how to name them all, Its a mixture of so many worries there's no name for it.

 

[Tinyflame]

(((FlyingSolo)))) :(

Am apprehensive and tired, just added 13 new clients at work to start tomorrow, and more to come.
Will change all my shedule as well, but haven't told me when/ who/ how/ where to commute, except for the initial 13.
And tomorrow I already have my regular schedule plus an office meeting.

I feel sort of sad. Ashamed, alone, disappointed in how I am.

 

[Let It Be]

:mad: Mostly just feeling disillusioned at the moment, which in turn stirs up many more feelings as I reflect back to those times that I want to ask, gosh darn, why did you do that to me??!! :mad:

 

[Elena Farely]

I don't feel I can actually go on... My sister is trying to encourage my mother to kick me out because PTSD as well as other things are getting to me and I finally lashed back saying what happened that she did to me. The result it has put me in...

My sister thinks just because I'm 19 soon, I should be able to take care of myself. Yes, I'm at that age where you're expected to get it together, get your life sorted.. But how can I keep going when my mother plays the ignore card and pretends she never did anything to me. That she didn't allow other things to happen. I knew she never cared. But the past year has really shown me that it was all true. I have no where else to go. My partner wants me to stay with him but I'm not putting this on him.

I don't even want to goto class today to finish my course in Children's Services. I just can't take anything anymore and I just want to run.

 

[Wordgirl]

(((FlyingSolo)))) :(

Am apprehensive and tired, just added 13 new clients at work to start tomorrow, and more to come.
Will change all my shedule as well, but haven't told me when/ who/ how/ where to commute, except for the initial 13.
And tomorrow I already have my regular schedule plus an office meeting.

I feel sort of sad. Ashamed, alone, disappointed in how I am.

Having worked in the corporate world for many years, I can tell you YOU'RE AWESOME! They have no idea what you've been through, they just see a strong, capable Junebug. You outshine all of them. Put on some make up, stuff a small teddy bear into your purse, and go get the job done. xoxoxo

 

[Tinyflame]

Oh Dear wordgirl, I have worked in the corporate world, but this is now just lowly (hands-on) physical Health Care. Though they did seem kind of surprised I just said 'great'. But that is so sweet, I have a pretty big purse and one bear, but even he wouldn't fit, lol.

I will think of something to bring- good idea. :)
(((((Sweet wordgirl)))))

 

[intothelight]

Completely pissed off. But at least this time I have a valid reason in the present and my level of anger is appropriate. But I really didn't need one more thing to deal with.:(

 

[Tinyflame]

((((Dear ITL!)))))