What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[KP the nut]

Was this your friend that got robbed?

No, this is another friend. He was only 51.

I feel being my friend is not a healthy place to be right now.

I'm feeling tired and confused. 'The mask' is in place and I feel I cannot let it slip. Tomorrow, I have one of those rare days when if I chose, I don't have to leave the house, I feel I need a day like that.

Thanks for the hugs everyone.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

For KP and goingonhope

 

[Deleted member 12723]

For KP and going on hope

 

[Srain]

(((((((((KP))))))))))))

I'm sorry you are feeling like being your friend is not a safe thing, that is not true, though I can I understand feeling that way. I know your heart must be breaking and there are very little words can do help with that, I wish there were. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your friend's loved ones.

 

[Srain]

I feel more peaceful, less nightmares, nothing lingering so I'm grateful.

I've gone through most of the emotional items, however there is still one that needs to be shipped out, though I've refused to pack it back into the closet. I can't find any of my originals letters or information of where to send to it so that's a bit discouraging. My hope is to finally let it go before my trip out to see my Son so that maybe that will decease any emotionally stress or triple triggering.

There's always hope, right?

 

[Froggie]

Yes there is always hope (((Rain))), even when we don't feel it.​

 

[intothelight]

(((KP))) (((Hope)))

I am sorry for your loss and the pain you are feeling. I know that words fall short at times like these, but know that you are in my thoughts and prayers as you deal with your loss.

(((Rain))) A hug to give you strength as you push on.

I am needing to be very emotionally strong today. Gathering myself within myself to deal with yet another blow. I am not sure what will become of the next few weeks. Only this time I am showing what it means to e e and staying true to myself. No more lies, no more denials no more excuses....not my own and certainly not others.

I refuse to let the choices of others break my back. They need to face their own consequences. I am far stronger than anyone knows and maybe I use the last of my strength to set right all of those things that have gone so wrong. Seems like my goal right now is to make is long enough to find peace to rest.

I never did exist for me and what I existed for has crumbled and fallen. Maybe that is because I fell. Right now I feel like I have to set the pace, the framework, and example for the others to follow. The choices that I made long ago have affected many and now it is time to shine the light of truth and make the hard the decisions. When I am done I can rest.

 

[CraftyCath]

I feel being my friend is not a healthy place to be right now.

Ah, but people want you for a friend KP no matter what. x;)

My stomach has been hurting so bad these past few days that I can't let it get empty for too long. So small amounts - often.

I had a big argument with my eldest Son last night. He doesn't know weather to go back to Uni and just sits around complaining about everything. He got angry and said: 'I don't want to end up f*cked up like her (me) or in a F*cking dead end job like you (his Dad).'

I felt so guilty that they haven't had 'stuff' that other kids have had but they have had more love than you can shake as stick at so I got mad! I told him that if he wanted something, if he didn't want to end up like his Dad and me, he had to get off his ass, be pro-active and do something about it. It isn't going to come to him, he has to go get it!

Living in this negative house is a constant battle for me. I am happy when I am alone or with others but as soon as the lads are there I can feel the negativity and the anger and I truly can't deal with it.

Anyone got a shed I can hide in? :cry:

 

[Traumagirl]

I am feeling tired, hopeful and slightly discouraged all at the same time. I'm having difficulty with my eating disorder. It's not a good thing with PTSD, very difficult to fight. I 'm reading a new book on the subject and that's why I feel hopeful. Hugs to all. Have a good day.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling good today. I am going to get a mani/pedi today. This will lift my spirits. I will have some alone time. I hope it all works out.

 

[amethist]

Worried what hubby will say when he finds out how much I paid for my rain coat. :oops:


But I did buy him new slippers and 2 pairs of jogging bottoms. :tup:

 

[Ice_Fire]

Tired, worried, scared, upset, trying not to cry. What if I am actually ill? This holiday seems doomed.