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What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

I put on a DVD today a friend gave me to watch tonight. It was only when It was on I noticed the cover. Before I could get up to turn it off, the barrel of a gun was point blank up front and center. I threw myself backward, and since my chair wasn't behind me, I hit the deck. I'm just glad there wasn't a table behind me or something sharp. Damn. I'm such an idiot.
(sigh.)
No you are not an idiot!!!!

I really don't like to have those instant survival behaviors part of my life either. Last January, I was in a hospital having surgery on my ankle which I had broken a few days before. They had to wait for the swelling to go down before they put the plates and screws in.

The night after the surgery asleep from the anesthesia and morphine, I heard the command, "Hit the dirt." Well, instantly, I stood up new cast IVs and all and dove out of my bed. I automatically threw myself on the floor hard so I would have enough momentum to get out of the way. I broke my wrist because of a line in some movie.!?! The conscious brain gets put asleep, not the trauma part. wtf
 
I'm definitely feeling better, my bounce isn't what it was but I know it will return. Christmas certainly took its toll.

Anyway it is back to normal tomorrow. I'm at work for the next 3 mornings. Today H and I walked the dogs at a local park, it was so muddy but the dogs thought it was great. I won't walk them next to the river at the moment as the river is so swollen, rapid and you can see the currents swirling around.

I'm feeling more positive and hope that that feeling will drag me back to where I was. It is hard though.
 

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