What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[99Phoenix99]

I'm proud of myself.

Even though my health is on a decline I went out to a party yesterday. I'm kind of a wall flower at parties unless I know someone (then I stick to them all night) but this time I did really well. I mingled and had a great time. The party went til 5am, I stayed the whole time, and really just enjoyed myself.

I have a lot of physical pain for doing that... But emotionally I am content and very happy about that.

 

[Abstract]

'm proud of myself

Really impressive Phoenix. Good for you. :tup:

 

[99Phoenix99]

Thanks Abstract! :)

 

[ms spock]

I wish that I had support from people - you know the sort who can give me a real hug, so I don't feel so alone with all of this. I have started to so some social stuff, but still along way from having good friends that I can share all of this with......

Ah it does take time to build the social stuff up GreenFrog2! I feel for you.

(((((Big Hugs GreenFrog2))))))

Having contact with toxic families can really do your head in on top of everything else.

Take care GreenFrog!

 

[ms spock]

I did some pretty classy boogie boarding today. I boogie boarded right up to the water line. I did it four times. I just thought it was important to report in on that. I feel happy about how cool I felt being able to do that.

 

[Abstract]

Struggling particularly intensely with self hatred. Have it running through my head in a never ending loop. Detest myself but trying to just let it flow past.

 

[GreenFrog2]

Struggling particularly intensely with self hatred. Have it running through my head in a never ending loop. Detest myself but trying to just let it flow past.

That pretty much sums things up for me as well Abstract. am letting all the emotions flow over me and enjoying any respite from it I can get. Will go for a walk later (about the only thing that I can still do!) and then I will sit down with my journal and see if I can figure out what brought this on so that I can processes it!

Hope I can come up with something other than all of my problems with work, money, family, PTSD........but no doubt it has to do with at least one of these. Need to get a grip on it a little bit - then plan how I will get though this weeks work on Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday.....

(((abstract)))) and take care of yourself.

 

[MissMacD]

Supressed, agitated, restless, accomplished.

 

[Abstract]

hat pretty much sums things up for me as well Abstract.

So sorry to hear that greenfrog. I think it can be very helpful finding where it is coming from. I really hope you find some peace.
(((greefrog))) if Ok.

 

[goingonhope]

I am mostly doing well :tup:, though struggled and cried all yesterday when misunderstandings were too great.

Feeling hopeful; exhausted; pleased with my contributions to today; frustrated somewhat with being unable to think clear enough to post tonight outside of this thread; achy; cold; thankful for today; eager for tommorrow and disappointed in having very little extra time here these days - outside of these very late or early hrs.

:inlove: I feel grateful for this forum and appreciative to its admin's, mod's and members.

 

[GreenFrog2]

I think it can be very helpful finding where it is coming from. I really hope you find some peace.

Hugs are always appreciated, so thank you!

I hope that we can both sort out where it is coming from! I keep thinking that mine is 50% from my trauma and what as happened to me since then - all totally beyond my control, which I hate so much as it has totally destroyed my life. I think the other 50%is about family - I was so hurt that it was to much for me to get in touch with them before now. I was also so, so stubborn - I think we all were. But if I had not been then we would have been in touch a long time ago and maybe wither my trauma would not have happened or I would have had support though it.

I don't know, but I think that I am hating myself for holding onto the hurt for so long, even though I stayed away from them initially as it was the only way that I had to cope with it all.......

 

[Springer80]

Struggling....with myself AGAIN. Sleep beats awake.