I was feeling... despaired, I suppose, earlier (before I chose to join here). I had one of those waves of "I hate myself, I hate myself for doing that thing that made that person hurt me, I hate myself for being traumatized by that thing, I'm so pathetic, blehhhh"... Now I don't know what I'm feeling. Hopeful, and curious, perhaps, about this forum. (And tired because I'm sleepy...)