Kind of swishy and false. I don't know if it's because I pulled out holiday decorations last evening and started setting a few out, or if it was going through even more this morning and pulling down part of what I'd put up last night. I just find it overwhelming and triggering. Ugh! Why can't I just enjoy the holiday for what it's really about and forget about the forced joviality of it all with the Santa and snowmen stuff. Struggling with self-boundaries and external/internal expectations, I suppose.
Also Cj77 - it is a very close relationship we have with our therapists. I applaud your ability to seek care from someone you feel more comfortable with!
Spiderallis - Keep at it! I'm right there along side of you. It's rough some days, but better on others. :) VB