What Are You Thinking?

[Let It Be]

I'm thinking I have these days before I get the stitches taken out to let go of my feelings about how the dermatologist didn't listen to me about wanting the cyst on my back removed.

I'm thinking also of my times that I went there and now know that my own doctor came through and I don't have to return to see this dermatologist again.

 

[ms spock]

I am thinking not to dissociate or ruminate but be present and do my work. I can get a lot done today if I stay present in this now.

 

[Lionheart]

I am thinking that sometimes I think too much and need to just go sit down under a tree and not think for awhile.

 

[Let It Be]

I am thinking that I'm not too surprised that this accountability person hasn't called me this week.

It seems that this was a church/lent thing. I did turn her down when she invited me to go to her church with her.

I am thinking that this has been awkward for me from the beginning and now it seems to be over.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I'm thinking the burn I got on the oven the other night is at least a second degree burn. And I think it's infected. It turned bright red today and it's swelling. It's making me anxious and worried.

 

[Nighthawk]

That even if I get disabilty tomorrow my family will still not believe me. That I must be one hell of an actor in that case and should be given the oscar award if this is all an act.

 

[Tanishq]

I am thinking not to jump on anything right now.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I'm thinking that I hate it when I remember traumatic things that I forgot. It makes me feel like I'm going to have a panic attack. It makes me so upset I start shaking. I hate it.

 

[ihateusernames]

I am thinking where did all of my strength and endurance go? I feel like I need a looong vacation from the world, but what the hell do I even do? I hang out with a toddler all day and I only associate with a handful of hand picked folks. Then I'm also thinking that maybe this is my norm and the time when I functioned better were just a fluke. UGH

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I'm thinking people who can take antidepressants and anti anxiety medications are lucky. I can't due to other medications. I wish I could take something to help with the symptoms. I feel like everything is crashing down on me.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am thinking that I need to keep busy because when i am not busy i tend to dwell on the negatives. I simply worry too much.

 

[Let It Be]

I'm thinking and grieving as I look back to a certain time in my life where it affected me to this day.

I'm thinking if only, for what I have survived but at the same time, I must need to peel away another layer to continue dealing with this "unfinished business" I have been working on.