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What Made You Angry Today?
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ms spock
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Still people who hurt animals. I am looking after a number of rescue animals. One is so hyperalert and goes to bite at the gentlest touch sometimes, then she realises she is safe and snuggles up. That poor little dog who has suffered so much.
That my aunt just announced herself for a visit over Christmas. I didn't stay over Christmas for years and I promised my parents this year....but now I'll have to deal with my aunt and my spoiled and insencere god-child....:banghead: ...and my grandmother just praises them to the skies, they're freeloaders and I'm so mad that I don't have the right to stand up and tell my true opinion.
BlackbirdSinging
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Having someone look at me like I was being totally ridiculous when I talked about something that was frustrating me. It made me so angry and it made me feel so invalidated.
I don't care that the person didn't agree with me. I cared about my feelings. And if the other person didn't understand why I felt the way I did they could have kept their comments to themselves. And they could have not gone out of their way to look at me with that look on their face. I wasn't asking for input opinions or thoughts. I was talking about something that was frustrating me.
I don't care that the person didn't agree with me. I cared about my feelings. And if the other person didn't understand why I felt the way I did they could have kept their comments to themselves. And they could have not gone out of their way to look at me with that look on their face. I wasn't asking for input opinions or thoughts. I was talking about something that was frustrating me.
illusionist
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Doctors, psychiatrists, and social workers who were told of abuses but never protected us......four brothers, one by one taken away as their behaviour outside the house became uncontrollable....spoke out once in a safe place...yet nothing was done!!!!!! I was left there, never questioned or protected...damn every one of them!!!!
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Myself .....
BlackbirdSinging
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When my mom tried to play therapist. She asked me how I felt about a decision my daughter made. She asked me if I was ok with it. Initially last week I'd been a disappointed. So today I said yes I'm ok but explained that I had been disappointed at first but it was nothing serious.
And then she interrupted me and told me she wanted me to do an exercise for her. She wanted me to put myself in my daughter's shoes.
The problem with that is she had interrupted me made her own assumption of what I was trying to say. And then wanted to correct me for something I wasn't doing thinking or feeling.
What really makes me mad is she's not a therapist. I'm not going to do exercises for her. And my feelings of disappointment had nothing to do with not understanding my daughter's position. My mom assumed she knew what was disappointing me. And she was wrong. She had interrupted me and given me her solution to her incorrect assumption. If she would have stopped talking and listened to me she would have heard my actual feelings.
And what makes me even more angry is I've been depressed and having a hard time for the past 2 weeks. And when I started talking to her I was saying I kind of don't feel like going to the holiday party we're invited to tonight because of how depressed I've been feeling.
She now thinks I don't want to go because I'm depressed and disappointed about my daughter's decision. Which I'm not. The only reason it matters is because now that's how she's treating me. Like I'm depressed about my daughter when I'm not.
I tried to tell her that my heart isn't in going to the party tonight because I have to fake being happy. And she said I don't have to go. I told her how it's exhausting to fake being happy and she smiled at me and "yes but you're so good at it". Is she actually proud of me that I can fake happiness?
And then she interrupted me and told me she wanted me to do an exercise for her. She wanted me to put myself in my daughter's shoes.
The problem with that is she had interrupted me made her own assumption of what I was trying to say. And then wanted to correct me for something I wasn't doing thinking or feeling.
What really makes me mad is she's not a therapist. I'm not going to do exercises for her. And my feelings of disappointment had nothing to do with not understanding my daughter's position. My mom assumed she knew what was disappointing me. And she was wrong. She had interrupted me and given me her solution to her incorrect assumption. If she would have stopped talking and listened to me she would have heard my actual feelings.
And what makes me even more angry is I've been depressed and having a hard time for the past 2 weeks. And when I started talking to her I was saying I kind of don't feel like going to the holiday party we're invited to tonight because of how depressed I've been feeling.
She now thinks I don't want to go because I'm depressed and disappointed about my daughter's decision. Which I'm not. The only reason it matters is because now that's how she's treating me. Like I'm depressed about my daughter when I'm not.
I tried to tell her that my heart isn't in going to the party tonight because I have to fake being happy. And she said I don't have to go. I told her how it's exhausting to fake being happy and she smiled at me and "yes but you're so good at it". Is she actually proud of me that I can fake happiness?
BlackbirdSinging
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It was yesterday but it was when people were being secretive and trying to hide something from me. As if I didn't know what was happening. I'm not an idiot. It was beyond obvious. I don't like it that my daughter drinks. She's of legal age so it's not that. There are a lot of reasons why it makes me uncomfortable.
I've even told my daughter I don't want to be around her if she's going to drink because it makes me so uncomfortable. I don't tell her not to. I know I can't make her stop. And I accept it's what she does. But it still makes me uncomfortable.
And yesterday at a friend's house some people including my parents tried to stand around and block my view of my daughter because she was having a drink. Some of the other guests kept approaching my mom and asking why people were being so secretive. They didn't realize it but I could hear them. And I kept hearing my mom explain it by saying in a mocking voice "her mommy doesn't like it".
The point is whether it's rational or not I don't like it when my daughter drinks. And the standing around trying to hide it and my mom mocking me that I don't like it was deceitful. I'm not an idiot. I knew she was having a drink. And because I didn't say anything about it they all think they successfully deceived me. The only reason I didn't say anything was because I didn't want to make a scene at our friend's house. Especially because it was a holiday party.
And if I do say something they shouldn't be surprised that I knew. Especially since they went far enough that they posted a picture of my daughter with her drink on facebook.
I hate deceit. And I'm very angry at the people in my family who tried to deceive me. And I'm furious at my mom for mocking me. I'm supposed to respect other people's feelings but she can't show respect for mine? Thanks mom. Sometimes it doesn't have to make sense to her but she really should still respect that I feel a certain way instead of mocking me for it.
I've even told my daughter I don't want to be around her if she's going to drink because it makes me so uncomfortable. I don't tell her not to. I know I can't make her stop. And I accept it's what she does. But it still makes me uncomfortable.
And yesterday at a friend's house some people including my parents tried to stand around and block my view of my daughter because she was having a drink. Some of the other guests kept approaching my mom and asking why people were being so secretive. They didn't realize it but I could hear them. And I kept hearing my mom explain it by saying in a mocking voice "her mommy doesn't like it".
The point is whether it's rational or not I don't like it when my daughter drinks. And the standing around trying to hide it and my mom mocking me that I don't like it was deceitful. I'm not an idiot. I knew she was having a drink. And because I didn't say anything about it they all think they successfully deceived me. The only reason I didn't say anything was because I didn't want to make a scene at our friend's house. Especially because it was a holiday party.
And if I do say something they shouldn't be surprised that I knew. Especially since they went far enough that they posted a picture of my daughter with her drink on facebook.
I hate deceit. And I'm very angry at the people in my family who tried to deceive me. And I'm furious at my mom for mocking me. I'm supposed to respect other people's feelings but she can't show respect for mine? Thanks mom. Sometimes it doesn't have to make sense to her but she really should still respect that I feel a certain way instead of mocking me for it.
That I still haven't received two gifts I ordered on the 5th and 9th. One was a gift card, not coming from very far away. I've already called them and they said I should of had it by Saturday. So now I have to call them again. Funny they had no problem charging my account for it!
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