What people dont really talk about...

[AJ45]

Hope is like a never ending trick, you can have hope for things that you know will never happen. when there is one thing that gets you through the abuse and neglect as kid you prayed for it every day,, you still hope and wish for it but it will NEVER happen. i hate that some have to fight so hard its takes everything out of them there is no room for anything else.

 

[joeylittle]

when it comes to other folks how does one be around people when there is so much turmoil inside and dont want people to know.

Not sure if this will help - but I try and drag myself out to a coffeeshop, and I either bring some work to do, or a book, or something just to write in. It gets me out and around people, but in an environment where no-one is expecting interaction. It does help.

 

[AJ45]

Not sure if this will help - but I try and drag myself out to a coffeeshop, and I either bring some work to do, or a book, or something just to write in. It gets me out and around people, but in an environment where no-one is expecting interaction. It does help.

I fear outside so much. Noises smells are too much. People stand too close. Its major sensory overload get to point where detach that things don't even seem really. Sometimes go into anxiety attack have to go home :/. Bur thank you for veing open about what you do

 

[joeylittle]

I fear outside so much.

I do, too. That's partly what works about the coffeeshop. So long as I can get myself there, and find a quiet place to sit, there's an implied 'bubble' of personal space that will surround me. The hardest part is getting myself out there; once I'm there, it's much easier. But my experience isn't necessarily going to be yours.

I'm sorry to hear you're having such a rough time. Thinking about you, and sending support.

 

[AJ45]

I do appreciate all the suggestions and sharing.

 

[AJ45]

I do, too. That's partly what works about the coffeeshop. So long as I can get myself there, and find a quiet place to sit, there's an implied 'bubble' of personal space that will surround me. The hardest part is getting myself out there; once I'm there, it's much easier. But my experience isn't necessarily going to be yours.

I'm sorry to hear you're having such a rough time. Thinking about you, and sending support.

Same.

I hate that I'm breaking I know people say its choice but it Doesn't feel like one. ?

 

[TruthSeeker]

When I was at my worst, I worked on making a daily plan (a list I checked off with each thing I did-a positive)- I also used sticky notes and tore them up as I accomplished a goal. I fall back to function/safety sometimes....and back to list making, basics (meds,eat,bath, brush hair, -and communicate or read about ways to improve). Good luck, I'm confident you can so start small and work up. Keep in touch.

 

[The Albatross]

I had to work myself back from agoraphobia when at my worst. I actively isolated for just over a year and a half. Don't advise it. You'd do better to explore ways to cope .