When Something Happens, Why Do We Fall Apart?

[Deleted member 541]

My car died today, and I literally feel apart. I just feel so overwhelmed. I don't have a car, can't get to work, can't even go look for another car, because you need a car to get there. I have only 2 friends that I can ask. 1 works and the other is busy today. I understand this, but it still leaves me feeling stuck.

I can't take a cab to work because of my job and the traveling would probably cost me MORE on cabs than I make. Public transportation is fine for a few of the places I would need to go , but for the majority there is no public transportation for me in my job situation.

I will need to get a another car, I know this, but it also takes time to look, get it insured, registered. So I will lose another week of work, and hopefully I can FIND a car.

I am upset, crying, sick of the shit in life, and frustrated with living.

Does this happen to anyone else?? Do you just fall apart with shit when it happens???

I hate life!!!!!

 

[Lucky Laser]

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Most people would fall apart when something like that happens. Stress is a pretty powerful thing and if you're already stressed from other stuff its amazing how much even the littlest things can add. Also, the car represents a sort of freedom and losing that is most frustrating. I totally freak out when mine or my husband's car breaks!

 

[pandora]

We fall apart because we are already plagued with all of the other symptoms that PTSD can cause...it is too much for your brain that is already overloaded and the chemicals are altered and there are actual changes in your brain. Also, for a person that is independant losing your car can make you feel very out of control too...this is a huge stressor for you...but a realistic one. You know you will find one and things will work out but it takes time......you need to give in to asking for help in more ways than one. I know it will all work out....I just keep telling myself that too...one day, one minute at a time to get you through this awful period.

I think you are "falling apart" because you have PTSD and there is a lot going on in your life.....someone without PTSD would fall apart too. Tomorrow will be a better day and you will get through this. Summer is coming and if you are like me...I always feel better in the summer......think about that too. I know it is hard to beleive when you are feeling so low and have too much for one person to deal with....keep reaching out.

 

[linasmom]

Like others have mentioned Wen, I think that you've got a ton on your plate right now emotionally and that darn car of yours just adds to your "full cup".
Pand is right - tomorrow is another day - try to refocus tonight by allowing yourself to relax and possibly think through your options. I do think you should ask for help! Old non-working cars can be such a headache, I remember a car I owned once that I literally PUSHED more than I actually drove. This will pass.

Best,
Rachel

 

[2quilt]

my vent

I understand completely, SheCat! I have days like this too. I washed my cell phone in my jeans pocket last night. They don't swim.
Everything seems to happen all at once. The moon must be in a 'let's phuck with 2quilt' phase. Comcast raised the promised price for my service, so I have to fight a battle with them, and by the way, never fly with ExpressJet because they lied to all of us on my flight this weekend, canceled the flight at 10:15 pm, told us to all be back the next morning at 6am when they knew in advance that our replacement flight would not depart until 9:30am. I am now fighting with them to get compensation.
I also need an ultrasound, and the only person on earth who can make the appointment for me decided to take off work until Tuesday but told me she would set up my appointment before she left work Wednsday (yesterday). I was sposed to have the ultrasound done today or tomorrow. And no, the office manager does not give a damn that I am inconvenienced.
I am in the middle of getting off Cymbalta, and I am just a joy to be around.

I hate life too, SheCat.

 

[Seeking_Nirvana]

Hi She Cat, It seems there is too much happening at once. I wonder if something in the universe is telling you to slow down?

After I had a nervous breakdown and got out of the hospital I was jobless and decided to clean houses (free lance) I had no idea how to get customers and I just believed it would work itself out and kept positive about it. Low and behold my son's friend's mom had a friend who decided to retire cleaning houses and referred 3 of her customers to me.

It's the law of balance, and I think if you look you will find something good happen, to balance things out (hopefully soon).

Hang in there
Tammy

 

[Deleted member 541]

I have decisions to make. I have a car that is dead, and needs to be towed out of here. I need to clean it out first. I have to go look for another car. What have I done all day????

CRY and then CRY some more. I can't even seem to function. I don't want to function.

 

[cec]

Hey She cat,

You said "I don't want to function"--I get like this too, and for me it is because there is so much to cope with inside myself that there's just nothing leftover for life's problems.

Go easy on yourself because there is good reason for your ambivalence.

cec

 

[2quilt]

Crying is good for you, honey. It releases toxins. Get it all out of you. That's why we feel better after a hard cry. You may feel better after the long holiday weekend away from work.

 

[Deleted member 541]

I am losing my self again. Back to all of the PTSD bullshit once again. Anxiety, stressing out, flashbacks are making a visit once more, crying, and my body is becoming stiff to the point that trying to relax the muscles is impossible.

Falling apart and I am not even fighting it this time. Just don't care.

 

[linasmom]

Wendy,

I know I already told you this but - one day at a time, seriously. Do you have anything to help with the anxiety right now? It's very hard to focus when your body is fighting with your mind.

Thinking of you.

 

[Deleted member 541]

I am trying Rach.......I really am. I don't have any benzo's and really don't like them much. Never have. Always tried to fight it myself. Now??????