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No, emotions were a no-go zone. They always got shut down pretty quick with punishment. I don’t feel like that was abusive, but it was unhelpful.
I think I can get angry, but only on behalf of people I care about. Or animals. Anger on my own behalf is still pretty illusive.
I’m angry about this, but in a really anxious way - my tension is thick in the back of my neck because feeling angry? Feels unsafe. And, there’s a whole great wave of self disgust that’s been hitting at intervals all day...the whole, “I dare I...” thing. So there’s anger there, but it’s being overwhelmed by secondary emotions and beliefs.
I think I won’t stay angry very long. My brain will find a way to rationalise it all. “They were under a lot of stress, they didn’t know how best to help,” and on and on. And that’s true.
Doesn’t make it right. Doesn’t make it okay. I think if I take it to my pdoc she may be able to help me make sense of it and untap some of the emotion.
I think I can get angry, but only on behalf of people I care about. Or animals. Anger on my own behalf is still pretty illusive.
I’m angry about this, but in a really anxious way - my tension is thick in the back of my neck because feeling angry? Feels unsafe. And, there’s a whole great wave of self disgust that’s been hitting at intervals all day...the whole, “I dare I...” thing. So there’s anger there, but it’s being overwhelmed by secondary emotions and beliefs.
I think I won’t stay angry very long. My brain will find a way to rationalise it all. “They were under a lot of stress, they didn’t know how best to help,” and on and on. And that’s true.
Doesn’t make it right. Doesn’t make it okay. I think if I take it to my pdoc she may be able to help me make sense of it and untap some of the emotion.