20 years of military service, two wars, being lied to my the war criminals George Bush and Dick Cheney, being promised things by congress, only to have them taken away, being threatened with death by subordinates in the military but having no recourse in punishing them or ensuring my safety, The guilt of not doing more (even though I did my best) to make sure our airplanes were ready to fly at a moments notice to protect our troops on the sands and in the streets of Iraq, the list goes on, and on, and on...