Ha. I had that too. It changes the way you perceive yourself rather drastically. All stuff I thought was eh… more efficient or whatever, but actually not. The "helping" spot makes you feel less worse because at least you have some control, you’re doing it. It can cover the fact you aren’t really in a good spot. You might feel in control but actually it’s very easy to lie on being dependent of damage-containing/managing a situation and get sidetracked with your life, and actually lose control and freedom. The good news is that once you know and see it it you can do something about it.To be honest I was shocked, I don’t really understand what I’m experiencing. It was him that’s sick, not me.